Day One - Who Needs Support....I DO I DO I DO!

Well ladies, today i have to fire someone who deserves it but she scares me to my core. She's got anger issues and they flare up at work ALOT, which is really ugly. She's been with the company for the last 14 years and no one had the uhhh balls to say to her your behavior is unbecomming a catholic charities hospital but i have no problem doing that. She is vindictive I know she'll be retaliating in some way and I'm not sure how but I can handle whatever she dishes out. Wish me well ladies, this is weighing heavily on my soul, I hate hurting people but really she's not right for this position and she's bringing the rest of the staff down. Today is day one of the new eating plan, i'm going to be in ketosis if it kills me and it just might at this point. I've got my vitamins in and 24 ounces of diet/decaf tea in me and it's only 6:30am. I'm very proud of myself. My plans are for bringing a veggie burger to work for lunch with lettuce, pickles and onions. I have cheese sticks for snack and i'm not sure what to do about coffee, i need some but no milk products.

I've had my second shake for the day and I'm drinking drinking drinking. Trouble is that I've been drinking coffee (with milk) forgetting until I read your post that I shouldn't be having dairy - aghhhhh. Oh well, it's not much, I'll stick to water from now on. Andi, hope today goes well - just keep in mind that even though it may not be the best news for the one employee, it is for the best for all the other employees.

holy cwap this is tough! I had a sirloin burger and lettuce/onion/pickles for lunch. I had (2) cheese sticks for breakfast and for dinner i'm having steak/broccoli/mushrooms and onions. I think dessert is going to be ricotta cheese and some of that vanilla syrup with a squirt of no sugar fudge sauce. I hope this nonsense gets easier or else there could be some ugliness. i get to do the firing tomorrow so the raw nerves continue for yet another day. ANDI

It is hard to do the right thing about bullies. In the long run, allowing them to bully you or others diminishes their potential too. I have found that being honest and sincere gives them an opportunity to see their impact and perhaps do something about it. No one wants to have others think poorly of them, not even bullies. I will send you good thoughts to get through your difficult task. Emergen-C is a vitamin drink that you can find in most health food stores in Canada and I saw some in the States too. It tastes like crap, but it is full of wonderful things that are supposed to do wonderful things for us. They come in little packets that you sprinkle in water (lots of flavours, but none that I like). I look at them like protein drinks, a necessary evil. I decided that I would not be able to go through caffeine withdrawal as well as food withdrawal so I decided instead of non-fat lattes, that I would have coffee with cream in it. On Atkins, cream is less evil than non-fat milk, so I think it will affect my ketosis attainment less than 8oz of non-fat milk. The higher the fat content in the cream the better for the Atkins plan... go figure. I remember when I worked at Starbucks many many years ago, there was this ultra slim woman that used to come in and order a latte breve which means made with half and half cream. She said that she was following atkins and this was her treat... My co-workers and I tried one, and it tasted nasty, like sucking a bar of lard, but she loved them and it worked for her. My 2 day plan is to stay on protein drinks only, with coffee and cream. I am hoping that this is going to work with the antibiotics that I am taking for the stupid staph infection that I have in my knee incision. It seems that I am not getting off easily this time from surgery. Holly

I'm having a bit of a tough time because I don't enjoy heavy cream in my coffee it's leaving a nasty tongue feeling for me and it's gagging me up. I don't want to give up coffee, even though i drink decaf i thoroughly enjoy it. I am doing the Ruthy eating plan and it's going ok, the cravings are harsh but you know what I WILL SURVIVE! ANDI

Ok...day one is off and rolling...so far so good but it's early. Yesterday, I stocked the house with only the things on Ruthy "list"...made my breakfast, lunch and snacks for the road and so far so good. Plan on working out tonight as well. Not much happening at work today so I am bored and that is when I am weakest but I think this kick start plan seems like a good one (hey at least you can eat, right?). Andi, best of luck at work today...I do not envy you. Trish

Howdy Trish! What did you make y ou for breakfast and lunch, I could use some new ideas already. I'm having steak for dinner, a burger for lunch (all cow all day is my motto today) and i had (2) cheese sticks for breakfast. The firing is tomorrow so i get to be a bundle of raw nerves for yet another day. ANDI

Darn i could use some carbs right now....but I won't...but my head hurts a little. Breakfast: I baked this egg thingy for breakfast....crack one egg in a ramikin, top with slice of ham and some shredded cheese...bake....they come right out of the ramikin to take on the go. Lunch - Salad w/chicken, peppers and cucumbers...boring! We will get through this... Trish

So far so good. My sister picked tonight to take us out for dinner and I told her that she would have to take the boys without me. She was a bit put off because she hadn't thought that she would be doing childcare, but I said that it was unfair to expect me to sit and watch them eat their dinners in front of me and she had already told the boys she was taking us out for dinner. Family.... I am doing well, I have quaffed 4 protein drinks and one emergen-C so far. I have two more protein drinks before bed and a ton of water left to drink. I have had two coffees with cream instead of the standard lattes, so that has been strange. More strange than not eating, believe it or not Evening is my downfall. So far I haven't been hungry but I have thought that I should eat. Then I remember that I am not eating... but I haven't had any burning hunger pains or anything. I got my period yesterday and that always gives me a headache for a while, but I didn't stop coffee for that reason today, so I think I will be okay. This feels good so far... I think I am going to remember what real hunger feels like rather than emotional hunger. That is the plan anyways I hope everyone is doing well Holly

Ooh, yum Trish - that egg dish sounds too good. I'm going to try that tomorrow.