GoodMorning!!!!

Hi Gals! Okay, so how was everyone's weekend? Mine was a strange mixed blessing sort of couple of days. I went on a Youth Ministry Retreat Friday night through Sat and had a wonderful time that gave me a renewed sense of purpose. I came home Sat to 1 unhappy child and husband( thankfully my almost 3 year old Emily was a oblivious to the boys grouchy attitudes) and realized through tears and arguments that my son feels angry a lot recently at not getting his fathers time or attention. So angry in fact he confessed to stealing and lying the past several months whenever he was mad at us.!! WOW!How did things become such a mess when Im gone for 24 flippin hours??? So I listened alot and gave lots of hugs and went to church yesterday and cried and asked for guidance....and here's the kicker.....I reached for tortilla chips to help me cope. UGH! I think I am resolved and evolved and sometimes I make the worst choices. I know I could have done worse - in fact, I made a point not to reach for my wine glass and have a drink with the chips. I dont need to add to my problems. So I am resolved, its a new day, a beautiful day and I feel positive that my family and my eating habits can improve and be happy and productive. To that end I will take some of Andi's advice and marinate and portion control snacks and meals for the day. I LOVE that idea. Its a crazy life and I am grateful to all of you for STILL being here and helping me and being an inspiration for me to not give up on myself! Still a work in progress, Kathryn wt: 211 next weeks goal 209

Hi Kathryn you know what - at least you now know about your son and his attempts to get his Dad's attention. So going away helped open that one up for you to be able to deal with it, rather than it continuing to fester away. Good for you for not reaching for the wine - it's taking little managable steps like this that wil help us. Yes, you went for the chips, but it could have been a lot worse, and I bet it was pre wls. Yep - progress not prefection is my mantra - I read it on someones signature and for me it is soooo helpful (especially as I am a perfectionist). On a Godly note (feel free to take or leave depending on your view point)- sometimes 'we' get backlash after having a weekend like you had. Often I find I get mixed blessings in situations like this. Take heart

I don't think a few tortilla chips are the be all and end all of a diet, can you portion control those babies and make sure you account for them in your day and move on? Children are just amazing aren't they, they can lift you up to heaven or throw you straight down to hell....i like the highs and lows because I thrive on chaos but really that's just an adrenaline filled day! AM I THE ONLY WEINY LEFT WHO HASN'T TRIED ALCOHOL SINCE SURGERY? I'm a huge control freak and the idea of being plastered scares me to death. I got in all of my fluids yesterday and although i'm doing better i feel there is a large margin for doing better. I was like an eating machine when i got home yesterday and NOT in a good way either. How many 1 point weigh****cher snack cakes can you have before it's no longer a good idea? How much buttered bread dipped in homemade bolognese sauce (my favorite) can you have before it's no longer a good idea? How many good & plenty (stress food right there baby) can you have before the belly ache hits you and it's no longer a good idea? Those are the demons i wrestle on a daily basis. Hugs, ANDI

Another weiny here... I haven't had alcohol either (strange that as I am a control freak too!!) But nothing to do with being a control freak - I used to be allergic to alcohol - yes I know - I get hangovers each time I drink it hehe, no only kidding. My liver wasn't able to process the alcohol, but now my liver is back to normal I should try it and see. Maybe next weekend...hmmm