HELP! I need some reassurance, some hugs...something

Exactly Andi.. get up.. make your own happiness, run up some dumb old stairs.. turn on the radio or some exercise show and shake your booty and take a second just to smile. I know winter in NY can be tough, it has to be with all that cold and snow making getting about hard to do. the days are shorter, the world is quieter, and the big push from the holidays has ended leaving that feeling of a void. I know you have that kind of get off your butt attitude and make life work for you. Close your eyes.. dig down and find that Andi we all know and love and plow her out from under all that snow and just be you girl.. you know you rock and you are the captain of your own ship. Be good to yourself Carla

You just truly hit on the problem....being good to myself! Once again, I'm coming in dead last. I am planning this bar mitzvah, which is going beautifully but there are a ton of details AND i get to do it all again next year (YAY ME). I am fighting with the insurance company as they won't pay for my sons meds and he needs them desperately. I am a true medical advocate and I have no idea what I'm doing. I got a number for o.e.m. up in Washington DC no one knows who my counselor is so what i've done is just started dialing numbers and leaving messages, it hasn't worked yet but i've only left 19 messages, someone out there WILL be the one to help me, I hope i find them before the deadline runs out. On top of that my husbands mother is on what I call "death'watch '08" the chemo isn't working but they are still giving it to her with the hopes that she can fight on and see the kids bar mitzvah! We've got a niece or nephew arriving on 1/28 and although that's a joyous occasssion it's also really stressful as they are orthodox jews so they'd need either a bris or a naming, another day lost of work and shoot me now! I just needed to vent I actually feel a bit better now that i've said that. Oh and if that wasn't enough, I am applying for a loan against my 403B account (keep in mind it's MY money) and everyone goes you have the money in 3-5 business days, dude i'm on week 2 without a check and they keep needing to verify the same stuff, I have even overnighted it and they keep saying you don't have the right paperwork...well for cripes sake I call everyday who's fault is it now? ANDI

You're not alone! I have lost all my weight and then some, I stay about 120 to 122 give or take a day... I don't have a monthly cycle to blame, but I get tired some days and always see a fat girl... the fear of being fat is terrifying... I have to fight every day to eat right, I don't always win that fight .... and I have literally NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boobs left, just empty containers were they once were.... so empty that I have trouble finding a bra that will work..

MY g*d YOUR GORGEUS JEANY BEANY! HOW GOES THE MOVE DOLL? hUGS, ANDI

Thanks.... I do love not being "fat"... although I am sick of my family telling me I'm going to be anorexic.... believe me I eat...LOL The move is slow our home in NJ is closing tomorrow so my husband is up getting all the stuff ready with the movers, we still have to get the Fla house on the market... it needs some DE-cluttering and basic stuff first and today was my last open store day, now to get all that stuff boxed up.and get ready for an art show I'm doing Saturday....LOL and!!!!!!!!!! my husband told me I have 1 week to find a place to rent in N****il we get a place to live there...(we may be building a new home) we shall see... ....