How is it going?

Well today was better than yesterday for me. Still a long way to go as I'm completely back into the old habits of wanting to eat constantly. But remember, progress not perfection, and I'm making progress, even if it is slow. I managed to stop the grazing while watching tv tonight by sheer determination every second. Each time I went into the kitchen to get something to put in my mouth I had a cup of ho****er. Tomorrow I'll work on stopping the grazing throughout the day too. I've also decided that after Christmas I'm going to join a slimming club to help me be accountable with a weekly weigh in. I definately do not want that 100lbs to creep back on. There is no way I am going back to that life. So what are you working on tomorrow? Take one step at a time and we'll get there...

I did well during the daytime, kept very busy to help force food from my mind. Then when the work was done and the sun came down, PIGFEST!! I am so glad the new day brings a clean slate and I'm glad you remind us, Ruth, that it's not about perfection!! So this evening, I am going to tackle a few things in the house. I have new valences to hang in the living room, so this will be a good project to keep me busy for a little bit. And I also need to write an appeal letter for my husband. I've also tried to simplify my holiday meal to help take some of the stress off. I am having most of it catered and just making a couple side dishes and a few desserts (at least one will be WLS friendly). The holidays are always very stressful for me. The stress doesn't necessarily come from the present, but more from the past. I thought time would heal my wounds, but I guess not enough time has passed to heal them all. Even my husband commented yesterday, he asked me if I was okay, as I was putting my Christmas decorations on the tree. I lied and kept my emotions inside. Okay, not such a good idea, because then I turned around and ate a bunch of pasta! I should have spilled the beans since he was so receptive. Onto a brighter note, we have all come so very far in this journey!! When I sit back and think about where I was and where I am today, it's just amazing. I am thankful for so much.... for having WLS, for learning to live again, for meeting such amazing people like yourselves along this journey.. Have a great day! Diane

well.. I am doing sooooo lousy that it is not funny!! I am like you,the beginning of the year is going to start with me turning my life around!!! I KNOW what I need to do and how to do it..I am under just so much stress right now that I am getting so mad at myself for eating all the time!! I eat and am full and STILL try to shove more food down my throat!! With so many people at my house I can't get anything done,will be lucky if I get the tree decorated before Christmas!! I sit at my desk just thinking about it and am eating nuts,crackers,granola bars..some doesn't sound that bad,but its all day long!! I get out of here and its eat anything thats around,(should I say whats left in the house!).the kids' dad is out of jail and NOT working. Just hangs around the house and makes my liefe miserable and eats!! But anyway,I DO NOT want to gain the weight back....so I really have to start trying harder,today,tomorrow and everyday from now on!! I need to take control of my bad eating habits!!!

on one hand I am doing fantastic. It takes me 1/2 hour to get down one egg and 1 slice of toast, so my pouch is still a good size and I rarely over stuff it. over all I appear to be still dumping when I get too much sugar or fat, which was the whole point of this exersize. I am still a size 4 and my clothes fit nicely, not binding and still no 'elastic' waists. on the other hand, I had a hand full of nuts as usually yesterday and ended up with a stricture, puked my heart out until I get the culprit back up and had to start over with my food intake for the evening. overall I was not in a good mood, so I had one budget gourmet pasta microwave meal and was done for the evening. I would say that nothing has changed in the last 9 months, my intake is the same, equal to my expenditure of energy and calories. my exercise is also just not an option, I walked a few miles the other day and thought that my hips were going to explode and I ache all over three days later, so no more of that stuff. which is actually fine with me. I totally didn't want to have my weight to be dependent on exercise anyways. but still I know that I do not eat enough each day to accommodate any additional expense. right now I have accomplished a balance of energy in and energy out. occasionally I get the hungries, but they seem to be totally related to fluxuations with my cycle and not consistent.