Thursday Thoughts

Ruth A.
on 9/19/07 5:05 pm - Letchworth Garden City, UK
Sorry couldn't come up with a funny title like Andi - you really do make my laugh out loud Andi Anyway, what are your thoughts today - how are you going to combat that eating out of boredom, or head hunger, or whatever issues you are dealing with today. I am going to plan my evening meal beforehand, rather than leave it til I am ready to cook and just look in the cupboard/fridge to see what's there. Inevitably that leads to poor choices. I already have my lunch and daytime snacks planned and sitting in the office at work, I have a bottle of water on my desk and I am determined to fini**** and drink another one today, unlike yesterday. Have a great day everyone.
AndiCandy
on 9/19/07 8:55 pm - NY
Do you want to know why it is that i think G*D brought you into my life, it's because i'm lying in bed and the only thing I could think of was "thursday thoughts" and then i went THuck It does anybody really think this thit ith witty anyway....guess some do! Yesterday was a tough day and I took it out on myself, that seems to be my norm. Next week my period will arrive in all it's glory and I feel like heck in a handbasket this week. It's an excuse and i'm using it. My daughter's best friend (Sam) came over yesterday because they found another mass in his dad's belly, we'll find out tomorrow what the diagnosis is. He had a very rare thyroid cancer in the Spring but he's really never recovered and he looks terribly ill. My mother in law who has cancer as well, does not need another surgery to secure her shoulder blades BUT the cancer has spread and we'll know more a week from this Friday after this round of radiation/chemo is done. The prognosis is not good but his side thinks she's make a miraculous recovery! I pray all the time but i'm no longer sure what to pray for. I'll tell you that I corporated a package of pretzels and a bag of m&m's into my diet and still hovered around 1000 calories which means i went without protein. I need to re-align my eating because i don't seem to be able to get much dinner in and I don't eat before bed. Dinner was six meat tortelloni in alfredo sauce with 3 fried calamari. It was a delicious meal but since i didn't plan to go out I didn't have the calories allocated properly and didn't know what to have. My husband had to use the finishing spray on the copper ceiling and the smell almost made me lose my mind (what little i have left), at no point did he say let's go out to dinner though. Be well one and all and know that living does not start or stop because of our weight, life goes on whether we are living it in the spotlight or behind the scenes. ANDI
Carla W.
on 9/19/07 11:50 pm - CA
RNY on 05/08/06 with
Today is my dreaded remecade treatment but I cant go without it and feel good so i shall survive. I was actually lying in bed thinking of what I could post on here today. hmmm.. so I came up with... I have the cutest mickey mouse pj's and i was looking at how small they are.. I couldnt have feet a leg in there a year ago. I had to chuckle at taht.. Some man flirted with me this morning at the gas station while I was getting gas. It's a funny feeling to have ppl be nice to you when they ignored you before.. I am gonna combat my hunger today by staying on my meal plan. It's what works best for me and keeps me from putting empty calories I dont need into myself to over do it. I am gonna maintain happy thoughts, keep myself busy and try not to worry about what to eat and when.. Just let the day happen. That is hard for me cause i tend to eat by a clock instead of when I am hungry. I'm not sure I get hungry or if its just head hunger. Well have a good one.. I'm off to go get my infussion.. bfn Carla
Deanna34
on 9/20/07 1:38 am - Salem, OR
Well, today I am very tired! I was up late last night quarreling with my husband AGAIN ... it's just a very frequent occurance lately and I'm so tired of it. It seems like we're growing further apart and I can't even pinpoint why. I think it's mostly because I want to be healthy and he doesn't. It's been rough. Anyway, I didn't get much sleep last night and I'm exhausted today! I was supposed to go to my Spin class this morning but I was at the gym twice yesterday and I'm super sore today. So I am taking the day off to rest up so I can run tomorrow. Plus, I think I need a day to just do stuff for me and reflect on last nights argument. I'm feeling really gloomy which makes me want to bake brownies and eat the whole pan! But I'm not gonna do that! Tonight I have an open house at my daughter's school to go to so I'm going to put on a sassy little skirt and high heels and strut my stuff! Hee, hee! I would have never done that before but I feel like being sassy tonight! Deanna
Carla W.
on 9/20/07 4:21 am - CA
RNY on 05/08/06 with
Hey you... sorry to hear about the fights. It is different now. We are all about exercise, doing things for ourselves for the first times in our lives. He is use to the same old same old.. he didnt make a drastic change in his life and wants things to stay the same. Take it easy on yourself and dont fall back to old habits. Enjoy your strut night.. you deserve it... Just remember you are on my mind and I care... Big hug and luv.. Carla
Deanna34
on 9/20/07 10:10 am - Salem, OR
Thank you, Carla! You're so sweet! I'm just feeling so lost about this ... I just hope that time will help. I just don't want this to make me lose focus on myself and how far I've come. Thanks for the kind thoughts!!! Deanna
Trixie517
on 9/20/07 2:12 am - San Marcos, CA
I strive to not let my emotions dictate what I eat today...we are all dealing with and have struggles in our lives and I for one need to learn the lesson to not let food control me. Use food as fuel, not pleasure is my new motto! Remember each meal, not day is a new start if needed. Trish
Holly2212
on 9/20/07 4:53 am - Victoria, Canada
I haven't posted here for a while, mostly because I am not doing well and have been holed up not wanting to let anyone know. Everything is getting to me but I think that the big thing is money right now. I am going to school and have been for about 9 years now, getting an undergrad and now a masters so that I can get a 'real' job instead of special needs fostering (that I have been doing for 21+ years now). My program just lost it's funding and I am at a loss to find another source. I have been applying all over the place but my fostering income doesn't count in the real world (contracted, non-taxed income) so I am not eligible for loans even if I could afford them. I had to move this summer because my previous landlord sold my house and all my extra cash went to that (double rent, movers, deposits etc) so I have been super broke anyway. Now the contracting body has screwed up and hasn't paid me the bulk of the fees for this month and everything is starting to bounce at the bank (getting me further in the hole) and I am told that the money is coming and it is their fault but there is no money yet and I am just tired... I just don't know how to fix this. I am losing school after spending 9 years working toward it and it just makes me want to cry and not stop. It all feels so futile, to work so hard and then not be able to get the credentials that I need to obtain employment after all. It is affecting my mood, my eating everything. I don't lose hope very often and it sure doesn't feel very good. I have tried to start each day like it is brand new, but this morning it just didn't work. I just don't know what to do to fix it... Holly
Ruth A.
on 9/20/07 5:35 am - Letchworth Garden City, UK
((((((((((((((((((((((Holly))))))))))))))))))))))) These are the times you need friends, not just when the sun is shining but when the rain clouds just seem to keep on pouring. I wish I could wave a magic wand, but I can't, so I'm sending you a cyber hug instead. If you need to hibernate, that's fine - I often do when life is rough, but please don't feel you can't come to us and lean on us as much as you need. I know I speak for several other people on the board when I say this. Life seems like a big black pit at the moment, but don't give up, keep looking up. Look for the gold specks in each day, no matte rhow small an dinsignificant it seems at the time. Eventually gold dust grows when it is all swept together and you have yourself a huge precious gold bar...
AndiCandy
on 9/20/07 10:12 am - NY
(((((((((((((Holly)))))))))))))) I don't know what i could say or do to make this any better for you but I'm here if you need to talk. I find when the day is terribly rough that it's ok to take a day off of life and reflect, I go to the ocean or to the lake and I bring a book, a drink and a journal and I do what i feel is right! Be Well, ANDI
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