Wubulous Wednesday Warblings

Glad to hear your legs are getting better. Is the doctor keeping an eye on it? Hoep you are back to fighting fit soon

Here are my most recent revelations: 1. That it does not matter who wants to go out to lunch or for drinks after work...I can say NO...I've come to learn that when in those situations I have no self control. Immediately following surgery I thought I could go and not eat or drink and just be present for the social aspect but as time passes, I can eat, I can drink and boy do I. So in order to achieve what I've set out to do I need to stop being the life of the party, always available and just do the right thing. Seriously, I am doing social things about 3 times per week...way too much! 2. I've come to learn that I eat mostly out of boredom or just cause my mind tells me based on the clock (not hunger) that it's time to eat. Or I eat something cause I think I may not get my regular scheduled meal...silly. I was never one to miss a meal no matter what...I was sitting at my desk today having a discussion with myself. I was bored and thought what can I munch on and I verbally had to tell myself no. 3. That I need to make exercise a priority. Albeit I currently work with a trainer 3xper week and I have rarely missed an appt. in the last 11 months BUT it ends next month and I am TERRIFIED. I can't afford to continue and I splurged with the 1 year of training to begin with. I need to make myself pay attention to the routine and try to incorporate it at the gym myself. Currently, I just do what they tell me. I have failed so many times trying to do it alone that I have a lot of worry about this. 4. That I have a new obsession...it's numbers. The number on the scale, the number of calories, fat, carbs & protein, the number of calories I burn during a workout, the number of "calories in versus calories out"- which personally I don't believe in anymore! 5. That I am probably more confused about my body now than before. I don't like that it seems that these last 10lbs will take FOREVER. I don't like that it seems that all my fat/excess skin is shifting to my middle. I think I have more body issues now than when I was heavy. At least then I was "fluffy and filled out" instead of this...I don't know what to do, increase my calories, decrease my carbs, how much fat & carbs are we suppose to eat. What I have realized is that it's not just how much you eat, it's what your calories are composed of. In the past I have basically eaten what I wanted as long as it stayed within the 1200-1500 range but now I believe if it's crap it's not gonna lead to weight loss. Andi, I am so very happy that you are being successful in your journey both with taking control of your eating as well as the struggles in your life. I truly look forward to your posts. Keep up the good work and thank you for keeping us all smiling. Trish

You hit the nail on the head with my recent revelations too Trish... for me, it's not the amount of calories I eat, it is what those calories are composed of. I too have only just realised that I can eat 1200 calories of crap and not lose or even gain, but the minute I eat 1200 calories of the right food (not bad carbs in other words), it seems to be going in the right direction. To think it has taken my nearly 18 months to realise this - I feel a bit foolish. BUT, nevermind, at least I've realised it now, and can amend my ways.