Old Habits

I am disappointed in myself...I have reverted back to my old habits just because I didn't like what the scales told me. How stupid is that - have I not learnt anything on this journey - well yes, actually, loads, but chose not to put my knowledge into my brain this weekend, grrrr. I have gone on a food fest (well as much as a post wlser can). I am stuffing food in my mouth, to spite myself. My (irrational) thoughts are if I gain weight by eating right, then I might as well eat what I like, no matter what I do it won't make any difference. My logic knows how crazy and ridiculous these actions are, but I still keep doing it. Well, the reason I'm posting is this, 1. so that if anyone else is doing this they will know they are not the only ones, and that we CAN control what we put in our mouths and our reactions to things do not need to include putting things into our mouths to consume 2. so that I can draw a line under this behaviour and start again. I WILL not eat anything else tonight, and WILL make wise choices tomorrow and WILL ensure that I eat when I am hungry, until I am no longer hungry. I WILL choose food that 'feeds' my body's needs not my emotions needs. Thanks for listening, and sorry I've been hogging the posts lately.

I am with you, I am becomming spiteful, I went down another size and I think that gives me carte blanche to do as i like, uhhh NO it does not. I am reading an amazing book (i'll email you the title as it escapes me) about a woman who lost over 150 pounds with weight loss surgery and how to keep it off. She has enlisted the help of therapists, exercise physiologists and nutrional counselors and there are some awesome tips in it....what's nice is that there are also activities that you do that keep you on the right track. I am a great journaler but i've gotten away from it and that's key to my success, if i write out my fears, strengths and weaknesses then they don't seem as powerful as when they aren't on paper! Hugs, ANDI

Yes I find that my demons are still my demons ( chocolate, yea you chocolate! I'm talking to you). Of course, like everyone else I was hoping in the back of my mind that this craving would not return postop and until about 8 months post op it did not. Also I know that everyone is individual and we shouldn't compare ourselves with others but its only human nature to do so. If we didn't compare ourselves with others or an ideal ( even if just in our heads) most of us would still be preop and not post op. I think I have the same rationale, illogical as it is, to eat poorly as eating well isn't working. Okay enough whining. I will really try to live the rules and not give in (at least not as much) to head hunger.

So what will you do on Monday or Sunday night to get yourself ready for a good week? I bought myself the large bottles of water so i can make a concentrated effort to get my minimum fluids in. I am going to pack myself lunch and snacks so that at work I don't make poor choices in the gift shop! I've got myself signed up for a kick boxing class on Tuesday that i'm all excited for. I just started a new job and the kids are back to their school/sports schedule so i'm not sure when to get in my exercise but I know that i need to get it in. At the end of the month my dance classes start up again and I know that will be a thrill for me so if i can watch the weight long enough for dancing to start up i'll be fine. ANDI

That's a good question - it's all very well saying I'm not going to do it again, but what am I going to do to avoid this happening in the future... When I have a day where I find I am reacting to the scales, I will have a day of purifying - fluids and protien shakes, and more fluids. I am going to cook up a batch of soup, filled to brimming with goodness, which is what I've been craving, so that I can fill myself with that instead. Thanks for the question Andi

Ruth, I find myself slipping into the old stress eating habits, nighttime and the weekends can be a killer for me. After three months of losing nothing, the scales actually came down three pounds then I went on a week binge it seems and up goes the scales. So now it's making healthy food choices again and fighting my demons. I have my slip ups now and then and I guess what gets my head back in the game was remembering why I had this surgery... so I could live! I am living.. and losing the last 10 or so pounds isn't going to change a thing!! Keep your head up! Diane

I think that my biggest problem is boredom eating. After the kids go to bed and I am on my own and tired... I just eat if I can't think of anything else to do. Popcorn seems to be the trick for me to stay ontrack, If I know that I can eat it, there is something to look forward to and know that I am not deprived of snacks. Tricking myself is not always easy.

I have lost 147 lbs and fight my old habits every day! I am not always successful, but most days I am.. because I will not be fat again! and that means more to me than eating things that are bad for me... I also will not rationalize my food choices telling myself they are "good" for me. when I eat something that is not good for me I fight harder the next meal ,or day to make better choices... it is very hard... your fight is one that we all share and you are not alone in it.