Im not the only one... check out this post.. get involved.

Dawn is bringing out the problem many of us are having with not knowing how to stop loosing and with our body perceptions. She is calling all of us to arms that are struggling with it.. check out her post. http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/amos/a,messageboard/action,replies/board_id,4856/cat_id, 4456/topic_id,3378829/

I have been extremely fortunate. I never really had an issue before and it appears that I really do not have one now. heehee ( hear a punch line going off somewhere) I stopped dieting at 6 months post op. and happily enjoyed my honeymoon. now that I am 15 months post op, I am if not dieting, and not splurging, I am just maintaining. worried about stretching my pouch, but overall, doing well. I fixed a pretty good size saucer tonight, put most of my meat back and went back for a healthy serving of veggies as seconds. my hubby freaked. not realizing that I didnt eat the meat. but I reassured him that i had plenty of room in my pouch for the steamed veggies and was ok eating two 1/2 saucers of them. oh holy cow, my dh just ripped me a new one, I found his stash of 10 ginormous candy bars, and I stole one, and hid it for when I want one next month or so. he totally can not understand that. saving a candy bar for 1- 2 months. I can save girl scout cookies for over a year. doesnt bother me to have it but not eat it. I seriously do not know how I got so big, other than feast / famine cycle of eating. Kat ( Houston) http://www.wretchedheathen.com

I don't really think many have that problem, she is 134 which is not really skinny.(except from the perceptive of an "past"over 300lb person) .. most put on weight after 15 to 24 mth... from what I have read only a very few keep loosing... at 5 5" 118 is underweight, at that point I would say worry or rather eat. One guy I chatted with had lost too much , so I told him go eat starches... he did and gained back what he needed to... I share the fear of being fat again.... I hope to never loose that fear... but I don't starve myself. Carla you are a smart/ active person.. you look great.. and know how to maintain a balance...Give yourself the credit you deserve.... personally, I have looked up to you and the things you do....

((((Carla)))) I think you are very brave to be this honest, it is only when we allow things to come into the light that they can then begin to heal. I can't pretend to even begin to understand what you are going through or how you feel. I can however relate to having food control my every action, and how that feels, which was one of the deciding factors for me having wls. As you have heard me say many times before, the journey I am on is one of walking into freedom in many ways, not just physical. Whilst I can see that from the response to Dawn's post this is a problem, I'm not sure that a separate forum is the answer. My concern is that if this is going on with someone, they should seek medical help. Carla, if you are going through this, please get help, this is serious and cannot be ignored. It will not go away by itself and needs addressing medically. Love & hugs...Ruth

Hey Girl, I just want you to know it took me a couple of days to respond to you as I just really didn't know what to say!! I think you and Dawn are really brave to bring this to our attention! I think sometimes people do not want to hear the negative, complications, or emotional aspects of this journey. I hope that if you are struggling with this (as you indicated) you are speaking with your Dr, nut or therapist!! You are a huge support to us all here on this board and I am concerned about you!! I do feel this is a problem for some and can easily see it happening to me!! I ride a very fine line of one day not eating very much due to fear of gaining and then the next day panicking and eating more due to fear of getting too small..then I could see me gaining...I can see the cycle here!!Luckily I have a great support system in place! This journey we are on is definetly an emotional one. I wish you all the best and please take care of yourself!!! Missy