Days go by...

So I let me 1 year surgery date come and go and didn't celebrate, didn't post, didn't share...why you ask. Cause I am still 5lbs away from goal!!! STUPID huh...but the way my brain works is that if I could lose 105lbs why could I not lose 5lbs in the last 3 weeks? So, instead of celebrating my success I choose to pout. I am the type of person that has to have a "deadline" or something to accomplish by a certain time. So this date was it for me and now that its past I'm kinda slacking on really trying to lose the rest. I met with the surgeon too and he said "your perfect...you don't need to lose anymore, if you lose 5lbs that needs to be it". So, instead of him setting me off on my own and not rechecking for 1 year he said I could come back in 6 months! Whew! I just need someone to keep me in check...what a baby huh? Thanks, I just needed to write it down, re-read it to make me realize how dumb I am being.

let me suggest a really wild and crazy thought what if your goal weight is not what your body needs? what if that 5 lb of skin hanging around is throwing off your calculations? yes, your body is at your goal, but that 5 lbs of skin is just EXTRA.. your pouting and beating yourself up for no good reason. get off the scales and get on with your life. I wanted to be 135 but I am not 17 anymore. which really sucks because when I look in the mirror I really did want to look 17 again since that is how old i was the last time I weighted 145.. heehee reality bites!!! I am at goal, I just have 10 lbs of skin that is hanging around waiting for my next installment of chocolate cheese cake. ;)

Kat has a really good point...how much do you think your saggy skin is weighing? We have a number we want to reach, but maybe, as Kat said, your body IS that weight already and that fact is being disguised by the weight of the extra skin? Plus, pouting doesn't accomplish anything. The only way to your goal is to do something about it (can ya tell I'm talking to myself here too???!!!) So congratulate and give yourself a pat on the back for doing as well as you have this past year, instead of hiding out regretting you haven't done better. Be proud of how far you have come, not shameful that you haven't reached a number. If you look back, you will realise what a distance it has been.

Trish, I understand how you feel, but Kat is right...your body (if you are eating right) will chose what is best for you... and the skin thing... yikes!!!!!!!!!! they told me 15 lbs will be gone after plastic surgery... (oh yuck!)

You have done so well. focus on that.. they are right.. maybe that 5 pounds isnt meant to be and it is excess skin. Remember how much u have accomplished this year.. how you feel and that you have made one year and are healthier, happier and skinner. Focus on that.. U have done so great.. congratulations on all the success you have had.. and all the success you will have in the future..

You are all right. Thank you all for your kind thoughts and realization re: the skin...I had not even considered that.

Did you set yourself a goal when you would become morbidly obese? Did you have a specific date when you would no longer be the wife/mother/friend/partner/employee etc that morbid obesity robs us of? You need to get off the scale it's robbing you of quality of life! ANDI