Off Track - One Lost Lamb Coming Right Up!

OK so a few of us have gone off the straight and narrow, how do we get right back on, is it truly like riding a bike? Breakfast 1: cold cereal and milk, i dumped so bad i didn't stop throwing up until it was bile, but that's ok because i've got a rumble in my jungle so bad no one can come near me Breakfast 2: 3 thin fried eggplant strips with smoked mozzarella melted on them Snack 1: a bag of habanero doritoes and the worst coffee i've ever tasted! lunch: (5) mini fried vegetable dumplings with happy sauce snack 2: 6 medium shrimp and a handful of some kind of trail mixy type crap let me explain to you all that i usually don't eat like this, i've had a horrid day and I am not up to explaining why right now. It's just an excuse because really i need to learn some self control. I figure if i'm honest then perhaps i can get back on track and keep the momentum going because tomorrow is looking rather iffy as well. ANDI

u r such a hoot...lol... Hey.. where the heck is the protein..lol.. i see some grease and carbs.. ah.. there it is shripm... and trial mix.. good girl.. and what is happy sauce.. your are killing me.. come on back my little lost lamb again.. we need to put a gps on you...lol

i will have you know there is protein in mozzarella cheese (please see breakfast #2) and uhhhh some in the 6 shrimp and there was some in the trail mixy crap and some of the other sh*t i'm stuffing in hard and fast. Give me some words of wisdom here i'm baa'ing into the wind. ANDI

OK, Andi, it's back on track for you and me both! We have come too far to turn back to old habits. Right? Look at what you've accomplished in a year. Would you trade what you were a year ago for eating some crap? No! I don't know what happened in your day to trigger this for you. But let me tell you, I can totally sympathize! It seems like any little thing sets me off anymore and I can't drown my feelings with food anymore. So most of the time I'm walking around like a raging lunatic! Well, not really ... I just feel like one inside! Sweetie pie, we are all here for you ... good and bad, we understand it all! I was mortified to write down what I binged on yesterday (whi*****luded more Sun Chips in the evening, by the way!) but it helped me to get it out and let the world know I'm human and I messed up. Today has been much better for me (with the exception of an M&M cookie I shared with my kids). I just "feel" better when I eat better and I know that. But it's hard for me to make that decision sometimes. But, we are all human and we make mistakes ... it's a matter of moving past them, realizing we aren't bad for eating bad, and making wiser choices for the next meal and the next day. You're such a bright spot in my life, Andi! I hope you know how much we all love and appreciate you! Deanna

BAAAA...I am too a lost lamb trying to find her way home. I think we all are going through something. For me, it's my ever increasing social life...drinks lead to appetizers...late nights leads to yes I am ashamed to admit it....McDonald's on the way home...OMG did I just admit that? I have been eating like every hour. As soon as I can fit it in I have been stuffing my pie hole. I quit logging food, counting protein and getting in all my water... So, what do we do about this? We stand up, dust ourselves off and make the change. We forgive ourselves but we STOP IT! For me, no late night snacking (i.e. McDonalds) is the first step. So, log your food, drink your water, eat your protein and resolve to make one change this week. Trish

Thanks Trish, i'm going to start logging again, I think that's the key for me! I will hold you accountable if you do the same thing for me. We can either email through here or privately, we are coming up on a weekend, weather is supposed to be phenomenal and how will we handle it....this weekend as opposed to last weekend? Hugs, ANDI

Ok Andi...I expect to see your post everyday on Carla's "On Track Team"...I will also.

thank you SO much for your beautiful words that truly touched my heart. I think that's what has made this journey so much more enriching for me, it's not just about the weight loss it's about the journey! Hugs, ANDI

Alright everyone.. andi.. think about it.. has anyone of us every stuck to a diet for a year. I dont think so.. we need to remember this is not a diet.. it is a way of life right now. we are the ones who make the decisions. not the food.. we are the ones that pick and choose what we should eat.. dont let your brain or old habits win that battle. I preach day in and out about putting your self on track.. it is important.. make yourself accountable for your actions. think about what choices you are gonna make for the day and stick to it... dont let cop outs change your plan.. oh it was stressful.. oh it was just to hectic.. I didnt get enough sleep.. I'm bored..I got in a fight over the color of the sky... plan now.. when you have the time.. what will I do if I feel this way.. something that is not related to eating.. make those active choices now so you are prepared when they hit you and you want to run for the cupboard. walk, run, do jumping jacks, take a shower, read a book.. something that is not eating.. Only u can break the cycle and win this battle. I know you can do it.. make that commitment.. we love you.. we want u to succeed. we are there for you.. we care more than you will ever know.. I can always tell when you are struggling .. u disappear from the boards for a couple of days.. dont think we dont know u my friend.. we have all done this.. you are no exception.. now get up.. dust yourself off and get on track my friend.. let us be there for u in the good and the bad times.. thats what we are here for.. Now give me that cookie... put it down.. no more... Big hug.. good job andi... now lets eat right.. do our exercises and stay on track... Carla

((((((((Carla))))))))))))))) as per the norm, you are correct. It's easy to make excuses, the challenge is that i wasn't even hungry when i ate the doritoes and I didn't even enjoy them, that's where the depressing part comes in. I will be contacting the counselor today so that I can get some of my issues under control and then i'll be moving on! Thank you for your beautiful and inspiring words. If you don't see me on the boards for a few days can you throw me a life line, obviously, you know me better then i know myself. Hugs, ANDI