Need some butt kicking here please!

Hello! I've had a bad day. Bad! I was doing great with my eating plan until after lunch. Then I ate some Sun Chips. Which lead to 3 fudge striped cookies. Which lead to a graham cracker with peanut butter which lead to another fudge striped cookie. Mind you, this was over the span of about 4 hours. But, now my stomach is grumbling and I'm sooooo dang tired and feeling depressed. What the heck is wrong with me? I haven't really binged like this since I had surgery but I was a major binge eater before. I thought I had gotten away from that but something triggered me to do it today. Thank goodness my stomach can't hold what it used to or who knows how many cookies I'd have eaten! Ugh! My husband and I are quarreling again. He seems to be "frisky" all the time and I am not. I hate to say it, but I just don't have a physical attraction to him. I love him dearly, he is my companion and best friend. I just don't find him physically desirable. He's constantly wanting sex and I just have no desire for him. I thought maybe subconsciously I was sabotaging myself by eating today. I just don't know. I'm tired and miserable feeling right now and I need a major kick in the rear end! I didn't spend the last year losing 141 pounds to start binging again! Someone kick my butt!!! Deanna

Ok.. here comes a gentle butt kick.. feel it.. hey.. dont tear yourself up about his.. get up dust yourself off and start again. you are an amazing person and someone I truely look up to.. You are fine.. we all have days like that.. It comes with the territory so.. hang in there.. You will survive this.. as for the sexual attraction thing.. I have problems on my own front with that.. I dont know why but it must be a phase we are going through.. You know you love him and care for him.. in time the rest will work itself out.. again.. dont beat yourself up about it.. it only builds that wall higher making the distance even future for you.. Now for the big hug.. luv ya.. be good to yourself.. Carla

Hi Carla! Thank you for your kindness! I sure hope this is a phase ... my husband is getting frustrated with me. He keeps pestering me on a daily basis and it just doesn't help matters any! I usually give in to him once or twice a week and you would think that would be enough. Arg! Deanna

As Carla said...don't get down on yourself, we all have bad days with our eating. Tomorrow is another day. I don't have a husband or an SO so can't help you there. I will tell you this though. I have had alot of attention from men lately and it doesn't even phase me. I could care less. LOL Just hang in there and remember that we all luv you and care about you very deeply and will always be here for you no matter what kind of day you had. Kel

(((((((((((((Deanna))))))))))))))))))) If you need a butt kick then I'll give it to you BUT I think you need some TLC. I can totally relate to your eating day. It's scary to think that person who used to behave this way is still inside of you, and is trying to come out again. BUT (again) THIS time you took control. The binger did not win out - YOU did. Yes she went wild for a short time, but ultimately Deanna took control, just like she is in her life. Be proud that you faced this challenge head on, you didn't go completely onto the wild side, and you recognised it for what it was, before the wild took over. It seems weird, but these times are opportunities to see actually how far we (YOU) have come. There is (probably) no way you would have stopped when you did if it was this time last year. Everything has now changed. As for the hubbie issue - friendship should always win out. In my view, companionship and best friend is FAR more important than sex. Sex lasts a few minutes (well, depending, but not long anyway!!! ) Friendship lasts a lifetime. Hang in there, I don't want to be crude, but he can manage on his own for a while if he needs to (if you get what I mean). What lasts is what you have with your husband - friendship and companionship. Does he realise how you feel? Are you able to ask him for some space in that department for a while? Give yourself a real treat today - un food related. You are an amazing woman Deanna and are doing really great on your journey of life.

Ruth, thanks for being such a sweetheart! You about made me cry because you made me feel sooooo much better! Thank you! Today is a new day for me. I went grocery shopping last night and bought healthy stuff and no bad stuff. And I exercised really hard last night and that helped pull me out of my funk a little bit. You are right, I just need some space right now ... I'm feeling so "weird" like no one understands and I just feel like I need some personal space. Hopefully I pull out of this funk soon! Thanks again for being such a great friend! Deanna

it is so very very difficult to get one's head on straight these days. when someone sets a goal, reaches the goal and then finds out that was not the goal. then what? I have a frisky hubby. bless his heart. I have not been in the mood since 1999! we had hoped that it was the weight, it was not. granted he wants me much more now. that makes it even harder. I HAVE NO LIBEDO!!! do they sell libedo? we would like some libedo!! as for the cookies.. hugs. let it go. beating yourself up is more of a problem than the cookies. FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF. set a reasonable goal and see if it works for you. if not. readjust your goal.

hey deanna. just start fresh every day. can't change the past. but we have some control over the present. none over the future, cuz it hasn't happened yet. that whole libido and attraction thing is probably really common for folks going thru this process. I'm taking Sofie to preschool, then it's on the treadmill for a 4 mile run. gotta keep up with you! Joe

Deanna my dear friend... you had A SINGLE DAY... I've been eating like this again for several weeks! Help ME! lol

AMEN SISTAH i'm right there with you. ANDI