How is your self image ?
I'am having a little trouble with the whole visual perception thing. I still see me at 249lbs even this week end while I was shopping for a new dress I found myself gravitating to the plus size store and sections ,my daughter even had to remind me that this stuff would not fit me . I ended up with a cute black and white summer dress at jones new york in a size 10 I was so suprised that it fit I almost cried . I just wonder when my mind will see what other see.
Is anyone else feeling this way ?
Heather
I'm having my own issues, not necesarily with self image but with image in general. I'm starting to not like how I look in a big way, I look exhausted and I'm just not. I go next month for my blood work and I just know it's giong to need to be tweaked a bit because i'm tired alot! I'm glad you bought yourself a pretty new dress. ANDI
YES.. i have been struggling with this for a while.. I think I look terrible and tired.. My eyes are black.. my face is wrinkled... not thin.. wrinkled.. I look one time I see a really cute body going on the next minute i am 264 pounds again. I dont know when this stops or if it ever will. I just wish someday I can be happy in my own body and enjoy the person I am and not wonder or worry about looking right (thin) which I still dont see myself as that even though people keep saying I am thin...
Yes, yes, yes! I am right there with you! In my mind I still see myself at 307 pounds. But when I catch a glimpse of myself walking past a window, it startles me that that really is ME! I still try on clothes that are way too big. I always head to the plus size section. And I always get that fear in me that I won't fit in a restaurant booth. I wonder if that will ever go away?
Deanna
Oh the resturant delima.. yes.. and movie theater.. I dont know why i get all weird when I walk in and I'm affraid to sit in the both.. Something else I noticed now.. when I go to restuarants I always got my own side of the both and everyone else sat on the other side or I would sit on the end and kind of hang off the edge. there wasn't enough room for us to fit in.. Now when I go.. people just jump in with me to sit down often not sitting on the other side.. especially with the other person is heavier than me.. I use to be that person.. it feels so weird having the room to share in these situations.
A small wow was yesterday when we were preping the RV. I have never been comfortable in there. It was just to small and I had a hard time fitting in the booths. yesterday I sat in that booth all day with a big smile on and one of my kids even sat next to me. that would have never happened a year ago.
Life is so grand now.. if i could only get my head to realize it
I think we are all going through this. I don't see the thin me in the mirror...I still see the big fat me. I wi**** would go away....but sometime I have to sit down and think...hmmmmmmm you were the old fat girl for 37 yrs it's gonna take some time for your brain to recognize the new you in the mirror.
I know what you mean about shopping for clothes....the sales lady had to come up to me in fashion bug and tell me none of the clothes on the plus size side of the store would fit me and introduced me to the misses side. I actually cried because I was so overwhelmed.
I look at it like this....I weighed 363.5 lbs the day of my surgery and am currently at 178.....I weigh less now than I did in 10th grade in high school. It's going to take some time and one day when I look at the person I see in the mirror I am going to see this new person looking back at me and I will know it's me.
Kel
I still look in the mirror and see myself as 280lbs - size 22/24. I'm in a size 6 comfortable though. Odd isn't it? I also look at my thighs and think "my god I haven't lost anything from them". Well obviously my fat self wasn't fitting into a size 6 a year ago so I had to of lost something! LOL
Also, when people tell me how great I look and that I shouldn't lose anymore - I feel like they're just saying that to be nice.