It's official ... I'm NUTS!!!

OK, so bear with me ... I've been completely freaking out lately that my 5K race is coming up on Sunday (3.1 miles). I've run 3 miles before all without stopping but only a few times. And lately when I've been running, I have to stop and take a drink and rest my legs. This morning I was telling myself how stupid I was for signing up for this race because I can't do it! What was I thinking? I almost didn't go to the gym today because I felt like such a failure. But I decided to go and at least run for 1 or 2 miles to keep my legs warmed up for Sunday. So I get on the treadmill and decide I'm going to lower my running pace a bit and just see how far I can run before my legs get too tired. One mile went by and I was thinking, okay, I'm going to see if I can make it to 2 miles. I did. So then I was thinking I was still feeling okay so why not try for 3? I sailed through that last mile and then added another 1/2 mile to it for a grand total of 3.50 miles without stopping!!!! And my legs weren't even all that sore either! I guess lowering my pace did the trick! Anyway, as I finished 3.50 miles and started walking to cool down, I burst into tears right there in front of everyone. I swear everyone thought I was completely crazy! I was just sobbing away because I was sooooo freaking proud of myself! I ran 3.50 miles without stopping! I can run that 5K race on Sunday! I can do it!!! Just look at what a difference a year can make. A year ago I couldn't have walked 3.50 miles let alone run it. I've never ever in my life been fit enough to run and now I'm doing it! I have a whole new life! It's funny how all this surged inside of me and I was crying like a big ole baby right there on the treadmill! I'm just elated though ... what a dramatic change in my life! I used to be a hermit and I would literally hide in my house and not come out ... now I'm going to run a 5K race and I know I can do it! Thanks for listening to me gush! I'm still just all in tears about it ... this feeling is better than all the candy in the world!!! Deanna

Deanna...honey let me let you in on a big secret ok, I knew you could do it all along. There was never a doubt in my mind and today i put you on the prayer list at work. I don't believe in trash talking in your own head, there is no room for negativity in there so cut that crap out! You have the ability to run as long and as far as you need to, not because you've trained so hard because you have the will behind it! I'm so proud of you and I'd be proud of you even if you came in dead last on Sunday...you're running a race for all the obese people that can't even comprehend running at t his point in their lives. Keep that song I Run For Life goign through your head! I believe in YOU Dee. ANDI

Andi, you are just the coolest peach in the bunch! You just make me smile everytime I read your posts! You know you are a sweetheart, don't you?! I just found out my surgeon's office is sponsoring relay teams that are walking from Portland to the Oregon Coast. I just might sign up for it ... how empowering would that be to be a formerly obese group of people that relay walk all the way out to the coast? I think that is so awesome! Thanks for being such a cool friend! D

****Hugs**** Deanna, that must have been an absolutely overwhelmingly amazing feeling You have gone through an incredible journey. I am so proud of you. You are a true example of how WLS can change your life - not just losing the weight but having the courage to get out there and LIVE! You are going to have a great time on Sunday and sail along with all the other people running with you

*hugs* Deanna. You gave me chills. I know exactly what that feeling is like. The first time I ran a mile I had a similar experience. I can not run 3.5 that's for SURE! I'm so envious of you. I have no doubt you'll have no problem on Sunday. I thought of you this morning while I was working out. I'm sick as a dog yet I still went to work out because I saw that you were too!! *HUGS*

Deanna, i know how you feel i can't run yet.... and I do mean yet... but I can walk and do the elliptical I am so proud of you. You just keep going because one day you will be doing a 10k. Lorraine

Oh please.. you are my idol.. I have always known u could do it and I know you will do great on Sunday. You know I will be right there u in spirit and heart rooting you on. You are a rock.. dont ever tell yourself you are not.. be proud and keep smiling cause YOU are the one that made this all possible. yeah surgery helped.. but YOU are the one that stuck to the plan and did what you needed to do to get where you are.. be proud of that.. be proud of yourself and be proud of everything you have accomplished and will continue to accomplish you your wonderful life... Luv Carla