What If?

Hello and Good Morning! I figured since most of us are just this side of a year out it's time to evaluate our situations with a WHAT IF! What if this is all the weight you were meant to lose, could you or would you be happy with it? What if you couldn't lose any more weight but through exercise and fluid intake you could maintain your current weight, would you continue on with it? Are you satisfied with your place in your journey? What if you had to obsess over every morsel you put in your mouth, would you still find this journey as exciting? I guess i'm asking everyone to take a mental inventory of themselves and see how you (we really) are doing. For myself, if i never lost another pound i think i could live comfortably in my size 10/12 world and carry on. I don't obsess about my food intake because that would take away from the fun of life for me. I enjoy working out now but if i had to do it every single day and in a compulsive manner i think i'd start to hate it (no i think there i'd most definitely hate it). I love getting out with my kids in the sunshine and going walking/hiking, swimming, playing tennis, volleyball, some basketball (darn the short legs) and that's my exercise. We walk the mall when the weather is blechy and that's fun too. I like to think of the clothes i'd buy (may never wear though) if i ever get enough money to buy me a real wardrobe! Hugs, ANDI

Good question Andi... I am very happy with the results of my wls. If I never lost another pound, yes I would be happy. The mental thing.. I have that bad right now, but I know I am still early in this journey with lots of changes still coming. In time I am sure this will disapate, but for now its ok. If I obsessed the rest of my life I think I woul be fine with that too. I got fat because I didnt think about what was going in my mouth each day and I know I was a closet eater which only hurt myself. I was obsessive about food when I ate all the time and I think I will be obsessiv about not eating. Someday I hope to get to a mental point where that can stop, but I think I will need to get help to do that. Bottom line.. yes if i had to obsess the rest of my life to stay where I am I would do it and yes I would do this all over again to have my health and life back.

I am happy. I actually was happy 25 lbs ago. now I found that I started the 'yo yo' part. 146 - 151 back and forth. but ultimately that was a little un-nerving at first, now I am okay with it. I know that it will go up and down, but as long as I am within my 'range' I am making good choices. as for the clothes. well. that is another thing. I didnt feel that a 'small' pj was going to be comfy, even though I am a 'small' size. I bought the "medium" and I look in the mirror and think, WHY didnt you just BUY the small and ACCEPT that you are a SMALL? because somewhere in there, I am still afraid that I will go back. maybe only back to a medium, but still back.

Interesting question and one that I have needed time to think about. I am extremely pleased with my weight loss so far. My health has improved dramatically and I am enjoying being active again. However, I would not be happy if 'this is it'. I want to be at a normal BMI - which for me is 154lbs. I have a ways to go til I get there. My main reason for having WLS was for health reasons. I feel that even though all my weight related health problems have been resolved already, I still think for my health I would like to be in the normal range. Once I get to this BMI range I will be content 'if this is it'. My own personal goal is 135lbs, but if I don't get there I'm ok with that. I do however, still hate the rolls of fat on my belly, which is what I really want to get rid of. Maybe the next 27lbs lost will take care of that for me. I don't obsess over what I eat most of the time and I don't want to get into that. I have been there in the past whilst having an eating disorder and don't want to go back, even if it is in an effort to get thin. For me, it is not worth it.