Food Addiction

Today I ate the most in one sitting that I have done since WLS. It is scary. Does anyone else find that the more you eat, the more you want to eat? I find this. If I don't eat or eat very little then my appetite goes completely. However, when I eat even a small to medium amount I crave more and more food. What happened today was that we had roast lamb - my favourite and I made a potato bake to go with it which was so tasty. For the first time ever I had second helpings. Not because I was still hungry but because I liked it so much. I was able to eat it, and it was only when I'd stopped I got pain in my stomach and could hardly walk, my husband has to literally lead me to the couch so I could lay down. What was I thinking!!! I'm so disappointed in myself. I know tomorrow is a new day and I'm ok with that. The thing that is scary to me is that after about 1 hour, I wanted to eat more, so I had 2 bite size pieces of chocolate candy. I could easily have gone on eating it, bit by bit. My body quickly got over the overeating at lunch, I didn't dump either, just needed to lay for a while. It felt like it went down very quickly. I hate the way food still has control over me. I so want to be free of it. Today showed me how easy it would be to put all this weight back on again. I want to be free of my addiction to food, where food and eating is not an issue. I want to eat to live, not live to eat. I never want to go back to that again.

i love lamb and potatoes.. yesterday was a bad day for me as well.. i didnt follow my menu and didnt eat a lot during the day so last night I was hungry.. I ended up eat more pretzels and some ice cream and hard sugar free candy. It is so easy to slip into that night time grazing thing.. I need to stay with my plan and keep on track or i can go right back up to what i was... We can do this Ruth.. we just need to say no and mean it.. my mind fights me all the time to give in.. I am trying to work on that part of my journey now. today is a new day.. lets do it together.

I can totally relate, Ruth. Everything you said is exactly how I feel! The more I eat, the more I want to eat. If I don't eat, then my stomach almost feels like it's shrunk and then I don't want to eat. If I'm busy and away from home, I don't remember that I need to eat. But if I start eating, then I have this weird urge to keep eating. I am right there with you ... I think that is why it's so helpful for us to come to this board and be able to relate to one another. It keeps us mindful of what we're doing and helps us keep on track. I know that I don't ever want to return to the person I was before surgery. But I can tell that deep within myself is this terrible drive to eat. It's a daily battle for me! Deanna

it is true for me too, if I eat more I want more...It has to do with my family as well..when I cook for then I eat more... when they heat up leftovers I eat less...(my son is almost 15) . ( leftover night they are on their own)

Oh honey, I'm so sorry you weren't feeling well on Mother's Day, that's not a great way to spend the day, sacked out on the couch and hoping for relief! I bought a book (notice i didn't say i read a book) called Freeing Yourself Of Emotional Eating! It's an interesting book that relies on giving yourself 15 minutes per day to get this emotional eating under control. I did the first few chapters but i need to get back into it. We are always addicted to food. One of the first things they say to do is prepare your plate from the kitchen this way, if you want more you have to go get it. The family will get used to eating this way as opposed to serving family style with dishes on the table. If the food isn't on the table you may not be tempted by it and you can gain control by the time you get to the kitchen (in theory)! I pigged out and snacked at a party all night and proceeded to throw up everything so really i'm no better then you are and I need to follow my own books advice...make a plate and walk away. Hugs,, ANDI ps. we'll get this addiction/obsession under control and we WILL win it just won't be easy.

I feel about the same as I did 1.5 years ago. feast or famine. I TRY to eat three meals a day, but find that I am not always successful. today, I was very busy and very stressed about work. we did stop on the way to work and get breakfast. I ordered a supreme croissant, but ended up eating a whole buttermilk biscuit instead. lunch was a 6" chicken sub with lots of salad fixin's and no sauce or mayo. snack was a giant sized Kit Kat candy bar, purely for the caffeine to keep awake, washed it down with a 20 oz coffee dinner was a 6" saucer of spaghetti, I ate 1/2 and then walked away. so today I did stick to three meals, extremely small ones, my habits are exactly what they were before, just the portions today were reduced to a 'normal' portion. the only thing that has changed was that I now KNOW how to limit the portions, stick to three a day, no grazing. I think that I am in control of my eating, instead of my eating controlling me.