too freaking skinny

okay, before you die of shock. I was not all that unhappy with my body when I was fluffier. I sincerely only did the WLS for health reasons. now I am HEALTHIER. there is no doubt about it. I am off all medications for all my ailments and other than my teeth giving me a really hard time, I am doing great HEALTH WISE. my body. well. yes, it is a rush to fit into teeny tiny clothes. it was beyond exhilarating to put on my 5 year old's belt to keep my pants up that I just bought and were snug three months ago. but I am not loving this body yet. I am not loving that my tail bone aches because there is no padding and I am having to learn to sit at a different angle to work at a desk 14 hours a day. I am not loving that my car seat is so worn out from the imprint from my old butt, that my new butt is aching after 75 miles. I am not loving that I reach up and touch my achy shoulder and feel every single bone and that the muscles are just not 'solid' yet, from all the fat melting out of them. I was so frustrated yesterday, I couldn't keep a thing down. not black beans. not chicken. no****er. not oatmeal. after for what felt like hours. I finally got up what was causing the problem. and by that point it had been HOURS since I had had 'food' and I was starving. I ended up with dry toast and p'butter and chamomile tea settling my tummy. and I am really not loving that I am so freaking cold all the time. I live in the tropics. it is 75' outside and I have to have the heater on and I am bundled up with socks, and sweaters. I would do the surgery again tomorrow. I am happy that I am healthy. I am just so frustrated with all the other issues that are such a PITA. and I totally know that I will not get any sympathy, but just to finish my rant,... no, better not go there. heehee. no one would have an ounce of sympathy for me, having to eat 6 meals a day to stop loosing. I better run and hide. heehee SUCCESS has its own CONSEQUENCES. Kat [Photographer & Mom of 5] 275/247/144/150 [pre-op/op/today/goal] http://www.wretchedheathen.com [[ Some people are like slinkies, they don't really have a purpose, but they still bring a smile to your face when you push them down the stairs.]]

Well that sounds like fun... I kind of understand your delima. I have to sit on cushions at work and home to keep my butt from hurting as well. I havent had any issues related to eating other than the occassional heartburn, stuck thing, but i would do it all over again to have my health. I love being skinny now.. It makes me happy a*****h.. But it is an adjustment period for real. I too worry about how to stop loosing weight. I am where I want to be now but I continue to loose weight. I found out that after the tt I will loose more just because of the surgery and the tightening of the tummy. Many say they loose up to 10 more pounds and thats not counting the skin weight I will loose.. so yes.. i am a little worried about that. I'm not sure how to stop the weight loss. I scheduled a meeting with the nut for next week to talk about it so I hope I can get some ideas. But in the same breath I am so affraid if I change what I am doing I will gain my weight back. I did add calories 2 months ago and I still am loosing so I am not sure at all what to do now. I have been trying not to say much because many people arent were we are at as far as weight loss but it is really starting to concern me a bit. this week I have lost another 4 pounds --to 137 which puts me 2 pounds above my goal of 135... It gets kind of scary at this stage of the journey for sure. If you get any answers please let me know.

my dr said that this is the 'sweet' spot, I get about 6 months of 'do anything you want' with no consequences, and then REALITY will kick in, and I will have to go back to the basics of high protein and low carb lifestyle. I feel for those that are still working it, but it has been 4 months of this, and I am still losing even though I am totally porking out on the calories and stuff. I used to worry about gaining, but now I am just worried about breaking the routine. I swear, no sooner than I get used to something, and I have to change. okay, now to find a soft coushin

OK you two (Kat & Carla) now I'm only going to do this because it's you two and you know me well enough I hope, but consider yourself cyber slapped by a green eyed monster No...only kidding. I really am sorry you are having a tough time. Not that it helps you but it is good for all of us to remember that being 'thin' does not solve all our problems. It was easy when we were obese to think that losing our excess weight was the answer to everything and life would be wonderful when we do. Well, we all need to read your posts to see that life is not like that. We need to deal with lots of consequences from having WLS - positive and negative. That's not to say any of us would go back and not have surgery - I'm sure we wouldn't. For you two, as you know I'm not there yet, but you have both done great. You will find a balance and your bodies I'm sure will settle down. Meanwhile strap a pillow to your butts, put on your winter warmers, keep eating those carbs (that we can't have yet grrrr...) and oh one other thing - forget to exercise! And you're welcome to come on here and post/reply when you need to for issues you are facing. This board is for all of us, no matter where we are on the journey, not just the slow coaches like me. (And thanks for being considerate of us). If we don't like it we know what we can do!! You two are old timers and are givers on this board. You deserve to get what you need from us if we can help in anyway. That's my opinion for what it's worth!!

awe.. that is so super nice. I totally can feel for everyone that is not 'there yet' I really can. part of me does not believe that I am here. it is like arriving on vacation at your destination, but your luggage is lost. you can not start a vacation until everything arrives. I can not 'enjoy' being skinny until I am comfortable with me in this skin. glad that I am not alone as I transition through this part. it is not about regrets, it is about unforeseen emotions and feelings. who would have thought that anyone would over achieve? who would have ever thought that they would exceed a goal? I refused to buy anything that did not fit at the moment due to not believing that I would ever loose one more pound, even 4 months out when I was loosing like gang busters. a fairy will not waive a majic wand and poof you are size 2, you have to move to loose, you have to reduce your intake to succeed. we all know that. but what we may not have known was that we would not stop at size 10 that was our goal. we would exceed down to a size 2, totally not expected, and not wholly appreciated. the woman that is infertile and wants to have a baby, takes clomid to get pg, finds her self pg, is suddenly so successful that she is pregnant with 9 babies, has now to choose how many to selectively abort so that the remaining babies have a fighting chance. she had some idea that she would run the risk of multiples, and until you are THERE and face the music, you can not guess how you will feel about the emotions that are going to occur. I was skinny until I was 22, then I became heavier and heavier, now I am back to being skinny. the same person is in the body that was in there 12 months ago. the same mind and emotion. it is a big transition to go through, mentally as well, and not everyone is going to like or want to be the size of a super model. I remember posting when I was 174, that if I didnt loose another pound, I would be okay. and I was serious. I would have been fine there. I do not know what I was thinking when I was 20 and 145 and thought I was 10 lbs overwieght. I was just flat nuts. it is a whine, but that is okay. those that want to whine that they are not loosing can. those that whine that they are not getting enough sex can. those that want to whine that they got stuck with a ugly UPS guy. well that is just nuts, I have never seen an ugly UPS guy! heehee those that want to whine that size 2 is unpleasant. bring it on, I hear ya! I do not think that I will fall in love with this body over night, but I am sure over time it will grow on me. ;) as with everything else, it takes time.

So i just looked at the bmi thing and according to that it says I can weigh 114 pounds and still be in the normal range. That sounds kind of crazy though. I dont think I have ever weighed that little in my life.. that means I could loose another 23 pounds.. Maybe I am still fat.. Thats what I see when i look in the mirror.. body perception is such as strange thing.. some days I see skinny most days I see fat..

body image... oh that i think is the core. what I see... I do not know what I see, 5 months post op, i did not see any change, even after loosing 70 lbs. I had not even changed clothing sizes yet. wore the same clothes. now I KNOW that I have changed, I can see it, so drastically and it is hard to face. I see the wrinkles on my face, I can feel my sinus's when I press my hands to my cheeks. what I 'see' is an old woman but when I look at old photos of me from last year, wow, it is a wake up call. I was not THAT fat. I can see it, but I do not believe it. I think that we go through a 'transition' we do not 'face' our face as we go up, and we do not face our fears as we come down. my head has been down for so long looking at the scales, that I have not really looked up in the mirror and met ME. so who is that woman in the mirror? what are her thoughts? feelings? values? I have to start to get to know 'me' and find out 'who' I am now. it is a stranger that I see each day. I am not sure how I feel about this new person in my life. me.

Would you like some cheese with that whine...let me get you a tissue for your crocodile tears? Ok so let me give you a little heads up 1) putting on your 5 year olds belt to hold up your pants is scary 2) put a pad on your chair and you'll be ok 3) put a pad on your car seat and keep on driving 4) bummer about the bones 5) are you feeling better today? 6) be thankful you own socks, sweaters and have a heater stop the whining and kvetching and be thankful for the have's and not the have nots. ANDI

heehee awe.. feel the love.. snicker...

you wine all you want!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are here for you and you are here for the rest of us who dont need butt cushions yet..... but want them, someday