QOTD

This past year at least for me has been about taking back my life. WLS has helped me do that in so many ways. Now in our tenth month I think this is a good time to look back at why we decided to have this surgery and what we wanted to gain. We have just a few more months left til we reach our one year mark but we need to remain focused on why we choose to go this route and where we are heading. How have you been able to take your life back? I had a lot of time to think about this weekend as I sat at looked at my friend. It was not that long ago that I thought I might die because of my ill health. I am so thankful I had wls. A year ago I truely thought I was gonna die. I was so sick all the time, I hurt constantly, my life was totally stagnent. My relationship was in the toilet and my family was leaving me behind because I just couldnt keep up with them. When I was lighter I was always on the go, but that was no longer true. I spent 10 hours a day playing computer games and doing as little as I could to be a participant in my own life. WLS has given me my life back. I wanted to be able to get around without being winded or have my back, hips and legs kill me. That was my first goal. My second goal was to be more active with my family and to reclaim a 17 year relationship that was falling by the wayside because of my inactivitiy. My third goal was to feel good about myself and the person I was.. I didnt like myself much back than. I have gained all of this and so much more. Other than spending time checking these boards, I am never on the computer anymore. I dont play internet games at all. I go to the gym 5 days a week and love seeing the cuts starting to show on my body. I feel so good now I could just jump to the sky and scream I'm back. My relationship is back because now I can share in our life instead of hiding out and running for cover when I'm asked to do somthing. I feel good about myself, my life and the person I am now. I am determined to never let this feeling change, and never let that terrible monster of obesity back in my life. I have learned a new way of life and damn it.. i plan to keep it. I love what I have now and I wont let that be taken away from me by that distruction person that lurks inside me.. I am gonna stay strong and fight this fight til this demon leaves and I have my total life back. It's a tough road but I know I have the strenght and willpower to do it.

That was beautifully said Carla. I had this surgery to help me find myself again and had many of the same problems you did. Now I can get out and move with my family.. I am taking golfing lessons to play with my husband and son... and I can go out and dance the night away and not look like a fool or be out of breath

Here, here, Carla! I couldn't have said it any better myself! That is exactly how I feel. I remember my daughter saying "Mommy, chase me!" And I couldn't. I would sit outside on a bench and watch my children play because I couldn't run after them. I couldn't work in my flowerbeds without getting winded and sore. I felt like a really old person in a young person's body and I didn't want to live the rest of my life that way. I feel like my whole life has done a complete turn-around. I'm loving every day now and each new experience that life brings. Thank goodness! We should all be very proud of ourselves! We gave ourselves the best gift ever! Deanna