Being totally Honest here

Carla, my Dear! You look GREAT! You do not look tired or sick! You look SKINNY! Honestly, you look very thin! You know that the rest of us are totally jealous, don't you?! Hee, hee! The picture of you before surgery compared with now is just amazing ... what a transformation! Can you see that? You look great girl! OK, but I can relate to how you're feeling. I honestly look in the mirror and I still feel like I look over 300 pounds. I know the scale says 175, but my mind says 300+. I bought some new Nike running shorts yesterday in a size Large. I could have easily gotten into the medium if it weren't for my stomach skin. So that puts my mind running ... "Is everyone looking at my stomach roll or the saggy skin on my thighs?" My husband said they looked great on me. And before surgery, if someone would have said I would one day be wearing size Large shorts, I would have been thrilled. But now I keeping thinking that I won't look good until I fit into a smaller size. I'm having a REALLY tough time with my own self mental image lately. I'm feeling really self conscious! Anyway, Carla, I think you look wonderful! But I can relate to your issues too! I hope you can see how awesome you look! Deanna

it is really hard to transition. I am still doing it. I think I look so very old and haggard now in my photos. I HATE feeling the bones sticking out here and there all over my body. I know I look better to others, but to me, I am not used to it. frequently needing reassurance from my husband that my body looks and feels okay. I think that it is residual from what we had already determined what was okay for us. we were okay with xx lbs of fluff, it was 'others' that really prompted a lot of our decision to loose the weight. now that we have, we are not as accepting since it was not what we saw as pleasant to begin with. I was okay with me at 200, most people did not believe that I was 200. I was even okay at 225 and 235.. it was not until I got up to 275 and 285 that I thought CRAP.. I have a problem. well now that I am 146 I am lower than I really wanted in my heart to go. yes. I said 150 to the dr. but in my heart, I was happy with 175. I am still transitioning mentally.