I have a question ...

Hi everyone! It seems like there are only a very few of us who post to the "On Track Team" posts ... isn't there anyone else out there struggling? I feel like I'm the only one that is struggling to not eat! I still have this overwhelming urge to eat, even when I'm not hungry. Is there anyone else out there still battling with food? Do you find that urge to eat when you're not hungry? Or do you eat til you're full and then wait until you're not so full and then eat again? I am having daily battles in my mind over this! Please tell me I'm not the only one!!! Or is everyone else out there not having any problems at all? I'm just curious!!! It seems like we lost a lot of people on this board and I wonder where you all went! Deanna

I'm right there with ya sista ! I just got transferred to a new office closer to home and it's not really all that busy, so I have alot of time on my hands. I am surrounded by food at this new office on my left is a chineese restraunt on my right is a pizza place ,next to them is a dounut shop and next to them is a subway. I swear the food is workin in this town. I ant't seem to find time to get my saggy butt on the treadmill or the bowflex even though dh set up a little gym in the garage for me.

Oh no Heather! All those restaurants around you? Yikes, that would be enough to drive me over the edge!!! How cool to have your own little gym set up! Deanna

The fact that I don't want to be held accountable for my own actions in no way means you are alone. Truth be told i think i'm more with you now then i ever was. I'm eating poorly, i'm making bad choices and i don't know how to make me stop. I don't want to go back to liquids, I'm tired of seeing who's reached goal today when i've still got so far to go. I want to be happy and bubbly for everyone else but i can't cheer on anyone else until I get my own butt in gear. I don't exercise (uhh problem one) i eat like a piglet (problem two) and the carb monster has invaded my life (want me to continue?) Hugs, ANDI ps. we'll get through the bog of crap together it's just one more hurdle to jump over DE~

Andi, you're just so cute!!! I always love seeing your posts! Thank goodness I'm not alone! I was beginning to wonder if I was the only one fantasizing over food! Food, food, food! AAHHHHH!!!! Deanna

WOW!! I could have posted what you wrote!! I am so much a failure when it comes to will power!! I can hold just about anything down at nights..I think I even try!! I want to be happy and bubbly and my scale doesn't say what I want it to! I can tell the scales what its going to say before I step on them!! Then I will say out loud--"well what did you expect.you ate 2 slices of pizza!!!" But I keep thinking well, thats ok before I would eat 4 or 5..but its not ok!! I will be out 10 months on the 10th and I would love to lose more before I'm a year out!!! I so afraid I won't and I will be stuck on the weight I'm at!! So.......guess I can't blame anyone but myself!!

Hi Karen! You know as well as i do that blaming ourselves is too harsh, this is an addiction and we have to fight it every single day. Some days we are going to win and the food will lose but some days the reverse happens, it's just the belly of the beast we fight. If we had a drug addiction, sexual addiction, shopping addiction, smoking etc etc it's easier to quit because you don't need those items to survive, we need food to survive! I'm with you girl what can we do and let's make sure we all know we are doing it together! Hugs, ANDI

Singing in my best Michael Jackson voice."You are not alone....I am here with you..." I have been struggling with this for the past month or so. I find I can eat more at a time and I am eating more often. I'm grazing. I'm falling back into those old patterns. It truly is an addiction. I just crave food. I try to post to the On Track board and when I post it is with honesty. But somedays I'm just so depressed or embarrassed its just too hard to put it up there for everyone else to see. I used to struggle to get in 600 calories now I struggle to stay below 1200 (because of all the dang junk I eat). It is truly a daily battle for me too. I appreciate this poast Deanna. Thanks so much for letting me know I'm not alone in this. Mandy

Thank you Mandy! I am soooooo glad I'm not the only one! I seriously was sitting here thinking I had to be the only one wanting to eat all the time. It's like I think about food ALL THE TIME! And that is how I used to be. I don't want to be that way anymore so why am I obsessing over it??? I totally know what you mean ... I used to barely get in 600 calories a day and now I have to count my calories every day because I could easily eat three times that amount now! Ugh! Thanks for understanding! Deanna

Oh you are not ALONE...I am right there with you. I think about food all the time...I ask myself, why? I am not hungry...I snack, I nibble, I graze. Especially at night it seems like my pouch will hold anything I give it. I only post on the On Track thread occassionally mostly because I don't think too far ahead as far as my day goes. I usually don't have a "plan" as far as what I am gonna eat. I just make it up as I go. So I guess I could post at the end of my day but then who would even look at it? We are all struggling and I personally find it a BIG help when people share their struggles, so thank you. Trish