outta control- grazing like a COW!

OK so I don't know where to start... but I have to get this off my chest. I feel like I have spiraled out of control... ok well I guess that is a bit drastic.. but yesterday (superbowl) we had a party and had just TONS of food, most of which I shouldn't even be eating. Well it was like the ole days... a bite of this and that and I felt like the old obsessive fat girl. All I could think of was when the full feeling would pass so I could eat more. WHY WHY WHY can my mind even go there??? I was doing ALL the wrong things..... pizza, chips, cheese dip, nacho dip, cupcake, beer, lots of captain & coke's, smoking.... m &m's, twizzlers....pepperoni, cheese and more cheese, not one good thing for me all day. OK well maybe the cheese if I could stop at a piece. I know today is a new day but I am so disappointed in myself. I just grazed all day and all night just like a COW! What if I graze myself all the back up the scale. OK I know I won't let that happen... but damn I do wonder about it.... I have got to get control. As I type this and I am thinking to myself....'Kristen... no wonder you are not as successful as so many people on the May board' UGH what is my problem! Thanks for being there everybody!!!!! I know I can be honest here, even though I am embarassed by my lack of control, strengh, and motivation. Thanks, Kristen

Kristin, boy do I know how you feel. I have had days where I have done the same thing. But you know what, were not perfect. The main thing is that you have realized that you should not be doing it, and the next thing is you have everyone here to support you. And not to support grazing, but one day will not hurt you. I know when it's that time of the month for me, I have the grazes much more. And I know if I would eat just perfect all the time and never splurge I would have lost more weight by now, but I also know that I would have probably lost my mind too. I always remember the #1 thing my nutritionist told me "moderation". Anyway, don't be embarassed, easier said then done I know, because I go through it too. Keep smiling. Angela

We've all had days like that.. dont beat yourself up.. just get up, brush yourself off and start the new day on track with the things you know u should be doing.. letting it get to you will only bring you down.. make you eat more.. and push you done a slippy slope you dont wanna be on.. we know u can do it.. just like all of us have had to do from time to time..

start with forgiving yourself. start by looking in the mirror and saying, you have come a long way baby! like yourself. it is not about what I do or what she does, it is about you. you can do this the easy way or the hard way. super bowl is just one day. this is FOREVER. so forgive yourself and get on with it. you do know right from wrong. you do know what you 'need' to do. hug yourself and do it. have an exit strategy next time so that you can 'plan' for the snacks. hugs.

Hello! we slip. and I understand the feeling of being the failure.... but today is a new day... start again... your success is that you are smaller than when you started and unless the scale keeps going up, your still a success..........

i know how you feel. sunday i ate almost a whole bag of m&m's and like five bites of a oreo mcflurry ( which made me VERY sick ) also the last 2 mornings in a row i had 3 donut wholes for breakfast!!! i felt so terrible, fat, and out of control. that when i woke up on monday morning and actully lost a pound, i found it to be a sign from god, lol! i am now on track, and even though its only been one day, i feel so much better. its crazy how easily i let myself go into old habits! don't beat yourself up about it, just change the things you dont like!!! i know you can do it!!! *hugs* jacqui

Good Morning Kristen! I'm sorry this is getting to you so late but BOY has life been interesting lately. First and foremost I want to give you a big ole Andi hug, because you are beating yourself up something fierce and i want it stopped right now. Listen up (i'm getting as tough as a 4'10 marshmallow can get!) it was one day in the scheme of your new life, let it go. My question to you was, did you savour your foods or shove them down, did you enjoy that (or those) captain morgan's and coke or did you guzzle them down with no thought. What i want you to do next time is savor the good food AND the bad food, dont' tell y ourself you are bad. KRISTEN is GOOD her behaviors may be bad, but embrace them, we can't be good eaters and decision makers all the time, if we could be or have been we'd have been thin and healthy for life, we're not, we're food addicts and the battle wages on! Now let me ask you this, were you just as bad as you were the year before or were you a bit better and a bit more in control (even one less m&m counts as being better, keep that in mind). I nibbled carbs all day Sunday but y ou know what, Monday dawned bright and early and freezing and i was back on the wagon again. I do have to mention that after my car died on the side of the road in the freezing temps that i did have a bag of animal crackers and (6) french fries with lunch BUT i justified that by saying the old Andi would have had all the french fries, ordered onion rings and devoured those as well and the whole big box of animal crackers, so in the grand scheme of things, I didn't do so bad. Kristen i want you to know i think you're doing very well and i'm so proud of you for coming to us when you felt out of control. Hugs, ANDI

I've been battling with the graze monster since New Years. I did basically what you mentioned at my familys New Year's Eve get together. I thought I did horrible but looking back I ate soooo much less than in years past. I'm still fighting the graze monster though. Working on grad school work at the comp its so easy to want to reach for those salty, crunch comforting foods. But this is LIFE I may slip but I know what to do to help myself. I chalk it up to me living my life not being on a diet. Some foods make me sick and others don't. I had surgery to change my life, not make it perfect. Kristen, you are doing great, one night or even one week of "not so good choices" doesn't make you a failure it makes you human. Hold you head high and think about how far you've come. Mandy

Hey everyone!!! Thank you for all of the encouraging words!!!!!!!!!!!! Yikes I reread my post.... and I was a mess... but it is a new day. I am back to work, away from the temptations of leftover snack food from the superbowl. It is a whooping 1 degrees here in Erie PA, it is sooo cold!! I could have easily stayed home today curled up on the couch in a blanket, however I needed to be here at work. Not just b/c it is my job... but I am much better at being 'on track' during the work day than at home. Thanks again! ((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))) Kristen