Feeling down

I dont know why.. maybe because of the pound I gained.. I am really struggling this week.. I feel like I am obsessed with food which hasnt happened before.. I'm bored with all the food I eat.. all protiens.. I have actually eaten a couple things I wouldnt think of eating in the past and now I am thinking about it alot.. My week has been a mixed bag.. I started working out.. Work is totally boring so I sit in my office reading a book.. that doesnt help because I got to much time on my hands.... I am thinking about food and eating. I feel like I have blown it everyday this week but when I compare myself to others I guess I am ok.. but more than I would normally eat.. Im off work today and dont have a doc appointment .. can u believe it.. It's so quite.... kids are back to school.. but what do I do with myself.. I need to get out of this funk I am in.. any suggestions.. and no.. i hate walking so dont go there...lol.. its to cold to ride my bike.. Sorry to bother u all with my little bout of depression..

Oh Carla, I can totally relate to you! This is EXACTLY how I feel lately! I'm in quite a little funk and I don't really know how to get out of it. I'm so bored with food too. I have this strange desire to eat but then I don't feel like anything I eat satisfies me. Food has been on my mind a lot lately and I hate it! I used to obsess about food and totally plan what I'd eat and when and how it would taste, etc. Well those same thoughts are starting to come back. I don't ever want to go there again! So, in my brain I know all these things. But a part of me can't quit thinking about food! I get the same weird quiet feeling during the day ... right now my son is down for a nap and I'm all alone and I don't really have anything "fun" to do! I feel like this is my time to do something fun for me but nothing sounds fun. I just don't feel like doing anything! It's weird! Anyway, I don't really have any suggestions for you because I really am feeling the same way. Just know you aren't alone!!! Deanna

UR right food.. its all the same.. i spend my time thinking of what to eat knowing that its not gonna satisfy what i want.. but I have no idea what i want.. i try something .. nope thats not it either.. its making me crazy.... than I see everyone else eating yummy stuff.. like cake. etc.. i cant have that.. what do i do.. in my mind I know i say no big deal.. but maybe it is.. I had a bad lunch yesterday with my co-workers.. that didnt help.. they eat really fast and a lot of food.. their all over weight.. i sat there with my little meal taking my time.. this one lady who is not nice to me ever starts in... do you always chew that much.. thats stupid.. than the other one starts.. f... that .. i would never do it.. made me feel like a piece of crap.. my boss (the only nice one) actually was eating really slowly and told them to leave me alone.. he was trying not to make me feel out of place with the others. the one mean lady is really large.. she actually told me that I was stupid for having the surgery cause everyone dies.. she knows this.. done research.. I just shake my head at her. I dont know.. this funk is just getting to me.. it sucks.. im sorry ur feeling the same way too.. we need to think of something to bust us out of this rut...

Howdy Carla! What i think you really need to do is start packing, move closer to me, and allow me to annoy you unrelentlessly in person...now won't that be fun? No seriously, you are not in a depression you are in a funk, honey it's one f'in pound don't lose sight of the forest for one single tree! There is no such thing as "blowing it" you get right back on that new, healthier living horse and ride it home mama! Come on baby you're doing phenomenal don't peter out now. Hugs, ANDI

OMG.. im a cali girl.. its cold in new york.. i would freeze to death.. i already do since i had this surgery, but i would surely die up there. One thing is for sure.. i wouldnt be worried about a rut.. i would be looking for a bonfire to keep myself warm.. You never annoy me.. you have great ideas and are so supportive.. you're my hero.. I dont think its the one pound.. i knew i would probably gain a couple with the new exercising i am doing.. it will come off.. It's my mind set i have right now.. thinking of food... bored with everything..food and life.. wanting to do more, but nothing to do.. just life.. i guess. before surgery.. i never left the house.. did anything.. i was to asshamed.. now I want more for myself.. my life.. my family.. just not sure how to get to it.. my mind is just running a mile a minute and it has no where to go.. but i fear ny wouldnt be one place i would run to right now.. ITS TO COLD...lol.. although i hear you have real bagels there..lol.. had an intern from there who told me cali bagels are not real.. we dont boil them..lol.. but u cant beat our mexican food..lol..

I write down alot of stuff in my journal this way i keep myself on track. I'm going to be a support group leader this year, i need to find myself a place to hold my meetings, i've got the people waiitng on me. Soon we'll be holding a meeting in my living room and that'll be ok too! I want to go back to college (again) and i'll start taking courses this summer, i wanted to go back and be a dietician but i don't th ink that'll happen for me, i'll have to research that a bit more. We have the best bagels here in new york. I don't really eat mexican food, it looks like someone ate it before i got there. Hugs, aNDI

that is too funny... gotta try real mexican food before u judge it.. mexican food in ny is pretty sad.. i know ive been there. just didnt try the bagels when i was there...lol..

What i think is hysterically funny is i loved chinese food before surgery and I mean obsessively loved it, which looks like someone ate it prior to my arrival as well! Now I can have some steamed chicken and veggies with sauce on the side and it takes me a few days to fini**** unless the kids help me. I do happen to have an unnatural affinity for sloppy nachos now, baked scoops: salsa, cheese, ground meat or tofu crumbles really whatever i have in the house then i pop it in the microwave till it's ooey gooey and YUM. I know the scoops aren't a great choice but BOY they are yummy and I try not to eat any other carbs in the day (hahahaha). I hope your funk lifts fast and that you are back to the happy Carla soon. ANDI

I was in such a total funk about a month ago, I had to completely change my routine. I totally went in the other direction. -0- exersize some fluids some carbs mostly read and sat in the jacuzzi for two weeks it was the most relaxing vacation I had had. it was a vacation from the scale, the diet, the everything I did not weigh one single time. I just ate 'normally' what my pouch would hold. it was 'refreshing' to not 'stress' about what to eat. I did not loose or gain or anything, I was exactly the same when I got home and even if I had gained a pound, I would have been okay. I was really trying to get in touch with my pouch. just the two of us. what it likes, what I like, and find a happy medium. we are much better now, me and my pouch.

that sounds like fun.. I am still 16 pounds from my goal.. i really want to get there so bad.. i know it takes time and I hate when i beat myself up over silly things. I need to be able to walk away from it.. but its just not who i am... that a behavior gets in the way..lol... i think i would be even more stressed about it