I failed

Well my doc sent me in for a sleep study to see if I needed my machine anymore. For those of you who use a machine.. I use a bi pap machine set at 18/11. Thats because I needed so much pressure going in to get me to breath that I couldnt breath out so I had to have two setting.. I remember waking up with my lungs collapsed several times.. thats why I ended up with it... So here I am 7 months later and down 105 pounds weighing 158 now.. So my doc sent me back to see if I could stop wearing the machine.. its blowing me off the bed now cause its set so high.... so I went in last night and guess what.. I still need it.. grr.... I dont need a bi-pap just a c-pap.. and the setting is now at 12 all the way around.. but I still need a mask cause I breath through my mouth... darn.. I was hoping I would loose that thing... but at least I know I need to keep wearing it..

NO NO NO NO NO.................. You didn't fail. This was a medical examination to see what, if any treatment you need. It was not an exam that you pass or fail. Please don't call yourself a failure. You are on a fantastic journey - look again at your post about your daughter sitting on your lap. Your health is improving and will continue to do so. You are cycling with your family - you have rediscovered a passion of yours. So I don't agree with you. You ARE NOT A failure

thank u so much... I always look for your post because you are an inspiration ito me on my journey. Wearing that silly mask in a minor inconvience to the wonderful positive things that have become a reality to me again in my life. I do need to think of the positives that are going on. thank u for reminding me of that...

Hi Carla! I just went in for another sleep study too! I hate those! Anyway, I was taking my mask off during the night every night without even realizing it. My doc wanted me to repeat the sleep study to see if I would need my machine anymore. I'm still waiting for the results but I'm assuming they'll just lower my pressure setting a little bit. I hate wearing that stupid mask though!!! Deanna

yeah.. thats why my doc sent me too.. I kept throwing it off my face everynight. I know its better.. I was hoping I didnt have to wear the mask anymore, but darn that mouth breathing got me...lol.. When I loose a few more pounds Im sure they will check again.. but in truth, even when I was skinny I know I had problems sleeping and breathing at night.. I kind of knew in my heart that I would be stuck with this thing forever.. grrr...

You didnt fail....you are getting better. I was on the bipap machine before surgery with settings at 18/14. They switched me in July to the cpap and turned it down to 14....now the setting is at 10.....I go for my sleep study in May if he feels it is needed. I have a condition called cor pulmonale which there is no cure for....it from damage to my lungs from macrodantin. It will never get better just progressively worse as I get older. I dont know if I will ever be completely off diuretics or the cpap machine because of it. But with this weight loss OMG the symptoms have decreased so much and the in itself is a god send. The symptoms that go along with cor pulmonale are similar to those of congestive heart failure. Swelling in the feet and legs and congestion in the lungs. It is not a fun thing. But the symptoms are diminishing as the pounds come off so I will not complain. I was told that if I didnt have this surgery done I would probably be dead in 5 yrs. Now I have a long life ahead of me and will be able to see my grandbaby graduate from high school one day and to see her get married. She is 4 and thinks she is going to marry a prince because she thinks she is a princess. She is so cute. She tells me now that I am getting a little skinny and she will tell me when I am to skinny. She says she loves the new little skinny Nana. I can even run around with her now and before I could only sit in the chair or take very short walks with her. So, life is good and only going to get better. Keep your chin up. Kel

Yes I have heard of that before and I am glad to to measures to keep yourself healthy. Thats why I had my surgery too. You will live a long and happy life.. and that is a wonderful thing... never give up on that beautiful grandbaby... how wonderful that is...

nope, not a failure, just still figuring out the new you. i go in for my sleep study thursday. i seem to be sleeping better without my machine, but we'll see. i still have fatigue during the day, and need coffee to get going in the morning. i thought after losing all this weight 330-118=212 i'd be full of energy. hmmm.

Hi Joe! I thought the same thing too ... I thought after losing all this weight I'd have a ton more energy. But I'm finding I still get sleepy during the day. I'm sure I just need to lower the pressure on my cpap and actually sleep with it on! Then maybe I'd have some "get up and go!" Deanna