Tears in the Changing room

okay, I am such a loser! I am 6 months out and 10 lbs from goal. I went to Target to find some work pants for tomorrow, took in two pair, a size 10 (personally doubting that I stand a chance) and a size 12, fully expecting them to be fine, maybe tight. the 12's were falling off and the 10's were loose. I put on the Large sweater, it was too big, and the Medium sweater was tight across the bust, but too loose on the tummy. and I felt my eyes well up and I swallowed more than when I am starting to dump. I knew the day was coming but I never really let myself BELIEVE that it was coming. I am not even to GOAL but my body has changed so drastically, I just do not BELIEVE it. now I realize that I will continue to loose some more, but I do not know for how long. that has been a fear in the back of my head, it just keeps shrinking. clothes that I bought just 4 weeks ago hang on me like some bag woman. so I put both pairs back, they were full price $30 a pair and since it is obvious that they will just fall off in 3 weeks, I might as well keep going to the resale shop until my body slows down. I tried to talk to my husband about it, but I seriously think that he is getting tired of talking about it. his mom is painfully thin and she said this week that she is a UK14, and here I am a US 10, which is the same size, but the 10 is 'loose' and so I am thinking that I will be a US 8/UK12 by my birthday in 3 weeks. he really does not want me to compare myself to anyone else, is normally good advice, but for some reason today it is irking me. so I had my cry, I left the store with the same baggy clothes I had and I still have the same problem. I hate buying clothes for 4 weeks. so now I am getting crabby. ;) I have issues. Kat [Photographer & Mom of 5] [[ Some people are like slinkies, they don't really have a purpose, but they still bring a smile to your face when you push them down the stairs.]] 275/247/160/140 start/surgery/today/new goal

Hi Kat Even though I've got further to go than you still, like you, I can't get my head around the fact that size UK20 is falling off me and I can actually fit into UK16's (although can't go out in them yet - too much bulge over the top ). I can't bear wasting money, so will not buy 18's that would be comfortable knowing that in a couple of weeks they will be falling off too and I've got perfectly good pairs in size 16 waiting for me (bought in a sale!) It is interesting that no matter how sympathetic, (eg hubbies) if a person hasn't walked in our WLS shoes they can't 'get' what is going on in our heads. I think the head journey is tougher at times than the body journey. From what I've read on loads of others posts that have gone before us, I've only read 1 post where she couldn't stop loosing weight. So quit your worrying, listen to your body not your head and it will tell you when it's good and ready to stop Plus it's good to get crabby now and then - it releases punt up hormones (???@!!!** )

I think that was what got hubby going. my trying to convert to UK sizes since he swears that american sizes are this and that, and UK sizes are this and that and his mom is this and that and he just can not believe that I am a size smaller than his mom! I will have to post a photo of her. to me it is a freak of nature that I would be smaller than her. to him it is physiologically impossible. HEEHEE there is a clothing place here that loans prego clothes to low income moms. they bring them back and get the next size larger. very kewl. I just wish that they had that for WLS patients. what a blessing that would be. kat

Yeh maybe we should start a store like that - pay a small amount as deposit then keep changing your size - for WLSer's going smaller and all other Americans going bigger hee hee. We'd make a ton of money

OMG girl you need to do the happy dance.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! good for you and your small self!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My family is from England/ Scotland and Itally (grandparents)(cousins) blah blah blah... They all eat the same as me(before) but I got fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the rest of my family is small!!!! UK size or not! When I hit the size 10 rack ... I'm going to do the happy dance right in the store!!!!! In fact I turn 44 this weekend (yikes) and plan on dancing anyway in my size 16 juniors!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

just for 'kicks' go look at the size 10 rack. it is so sad. these are not 'my' clothes, they look like something a 14 year old would wear. long t'shirts and the something freaky tied between the boobs. yeuck. heehee

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I have a few of those...LOL... My top is a size L I can fit into 10 shirts its my butt that has not gotten close yet!.DiD you see the jeans... They don't cover your tummy! and they way mine looks thats a pretty scary thought!!!..LOL

my jeans come to my belly button THAT IS JUST THE LAW my daughter wears those low riders, eeeWH! that is JUST WRONG!