A change is coming! A change is coming!

I have be MIA - really just lurking these last couple of weeks cause I have been feeling down about my weight - No I am losing and I am on track but I became scared of the change and I wanted to share with you all and hopefully I can help someone along the way. I complained cause I wasn't losing and as soon as the weight started to come off - like everyone assured me it would - I found myself sabotoging (sp?) and slipping back to bad habits. I realized that I have been more committed to others than I have been to myself and that is about to change. Have you ever wanted something so bad, you hoped and prayed for it and when it looked like it was about to happen or even that it could possibly happen you became so scared that you started to run from it? Well, that is what I started to do a couple of weeks ago but I was able to realize it and I am not running away from this change that is on the horizon. And if any of you have been feeling this way too, I challenge you to hop on and lets take the ride together. A lot of time we come together on this board/site and we mostly share our WOW moments but lets really lift each other up and be honest with each other and share the WHOLE battle. Soldiers march - TOGETHER and win the battle TOGETHER I just wanted to say to anyone that feels alone that they aren't. Let's do this together - the good the bad and the ugly. Phenom Go'in ya'll

Phenom, thank you. This post could not have come at a better time for me. Here I am almost 5 months out and 80+ lbs down and slipping. The past week has been an eating nightmare for me. I've eaten out of control and then complain about not losing weight. I raise my hand.... and onward WE go. Let's get back on track and KICK this!! WE CAN DO IT!

No, thank you Megan - I was beginning to think I was on the wrong board and I was the only one that was going through this. I have gotten so frustrated with myself but I am getting back on track . . . . Thanks for the honesty. We can keep each other on track. Take care and have a great evening. Phenom Go'in ya'll

I'd be more then willing to bet that more members of this board are like us... they're just not coming out of the closet. ;)

Soooo very true Megan, but everyday is a new day and a fresh start, we will all make the best of it together!!!

Yes ma'am we need to and have to keep each other encouraged, focused and on track.........I especially feel bad being so far from my goal, I still have another 100lbs to lose. Hugs........Simone

Im not afraid to loose i am afraid of what i will do when i am done losing. in the past i could stick things out til i got at least close to where i wanted to be then poof. I would decide i was thin, like my friends, and i could eat what they did. wrong. i know this is a lifelong battle and i am scared that i will sabotage myself at the end of the wt loss but not the end of the journey. that being said at 5 mo out i am getting complacent. not throwing up or dumping so i have to tellmyself not to eat that donut or whatever. even when i do fail i dont let myself get more than a bite....but man, it is tempting. staying strong is hard.

I have those same fears - that when my tool no longer gives me the restriction that I have now - what will happen to me then. We have to recognize when we fall and know that it can cause problems if it persits. I can not go back to weighing 322lbs (highest 345lbs) - I just can't go back on medication for diabetes. I just can't go back. So we have to help each other get us back on track if we do start making mistakes. Phenom Goin' ya'll