I'm so glad I decided to pop in here. I rarely do anymore. I pop onto the BMI over 50 board occcasionally but that's about all I have time for when school is in session. Finals next week and I am stalling instead of studying. I've also gained. I workout like a fiend and still gained. Disappointment, disgust, you bet. I was at 158 my lowest (for about an hour one Thursday) and now I am in the mid 170's bouncing around. It's sooo hard. Really, really, hard. Seems like the second I hit that two year mark, 15 pounds literally lept back on to my body. I also cannot wear a thing in my closet - back up to tight 14's from loose 12's. Not happy about this at all...... Did I say this is hard? Anyway, I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful holiday. Hugs, Tracy

A lot has happened in the last 2.5 years. For me, it's been mostly good. Total knee replacement and 2 multiple procedure rounds of ps. I have another one in May. I gain and lose the same 7 lbs . I would really like to lose 15 lbs to get down to 150, but I don't know if I ever will. So far, when I gain about 7 lbs, I get busy and exercise and drop the carbs. I've done the 5DPT twice. It seems to help, but it will be a constant struggle! Good luck everyone.

Wanda, its great to see you! I think that I've finally gotten my mind right, and I am slowly losing again. How are you doing?

Hi Kathy, Thanks for baring your soul. I've gained too and it's so difficult to share that. I am so disappointed in myself and really want to beat myself up a lot. I try to tell myself that beating myself up doesn't help. I too can't fit into some of my clothes and that makes me feel even more uncomfortable. Hang in there. We can all get through this and we're definitely healthier than we were 2.5 years ago. Big hugs, Wanda

(((Hugs))) to you Kathy...Thank you for such a heartfelt and honest post. It's been a long time, I am genuinely sorry to hear about all that you and Rich have been through over the year. I have been struggling with a weight gain as well, for all of the above reasons, plus my good friend Vodka. I will be implementing your 6 changes. I can relate to skipping out on supprt group meetings for fear of what people might say about the way that I've changed. Shoot, I even stopped coming here for a minute, others success was weighing on me, and I found myself resentful and jealous. Thats just me keeping it real. But then I took a moment, and actually "remembered where I came from" and that was enough to get me back on track. And like you for the first time, I put my numbers down for the world to see, I wrote dowm my shortcomings, and thats what I needed to do, to hold myself accountable, because who else was? My body has changed also, my jeans don't fit, and I just want to go back to the way I was...are you hear often. If so keep in touch. Take care, and continue to be blessed, although you've experienced more than a few setbacks, you have still come a long way, and continue to be an inspiration to me, and I'm sure others as well. Love, Aliya