Snackers Club: Report In Folks

How has everyone been doing? I've been fine. Actually didn't even feel good enough to eat last night. Ended up with a couple of pieces of cheese, two crackers and a protein shake all evening. Kathy

Yesterday was a not so good day. I fully went into the day very consciously not caring what I ate. I fully know, too, that it was emotional, physical, and mental reasons for eating. I have my finals due next week, my firstborn will be a teenager on Monday, and I FINALLY started my period yesterday. That, plus I had some Ombudsman issues that I was dealing with that totally stressed me out. So, bfast was okay, but then I pretty much snacked and didn't eat a full meal all day. And I didn't really care. And some of it was pretty high calorie stuff. And I didn't really care. But, the thing of it was, it wasn't really like a "I don't give a crap, I'm eating whatever I want, I'm tired of dieting...blah,blah, blah" that I did so many times pre-op, it was more of a "I'm allowing myself this day, and back on the wagon tomorrow" day - I don't know if that makes sense or not, but the mentality of it was different. No, I didn't eat 5000 calories, probably close to 2000, though, but my calorie count for the week or so before had been averageing 1400-1500. Anyway, today is good so far (it's 9:30), I've had my bfast and am going to have my protein drink and plan out the rest of my day's meals! Michelle

The week get better as it gets late. Last Sunday and Monday and Tuesday I snacked all day and like Michelle did not eat a full meal all day. It reminded me of my use to be days when Id get up each morning with good intentions and blow it by breakfast. On each of these days I did no exercise and felt like sh@*t all day. Didnt even care if I showered or the house got clean. I was really in a funk. On Wednesday after being brave enough to get on the scales I had gained ofcourse but it put me in perspective. Every since Wednesday Ive done pretty good. Ive almost lost all of what I gained. It was like once I allowed myself the opportunity to not care, it went beyond my control. It was hard as you know what to get back to it. Now that Im back on track it feels so good. Im just a better person all around when Im on track or at least for the most part on track. Youd think by getting to eat whatever Id be in a super good mood but no way. Since Wednesday Ive really tried to focus on the healthy carbs, cut back on my salt intake, and cut out all processed foods. Its truly amazing how my cravings have diminished since a few days ago. Im trying really hard not to mess up again, I see my doc on Monday and I want to be back at goal. Hey its a day at a time for me! Candy