I guess today is better...

So far today, I didn't have my entire belly expand many inches like yesterday after I ate a burger w/ cheese. My very loose size 12 jeans became like wallpaper on the wall. My officemate could see it. I guess today is better. So far today, no leg cramps that send me very close to screaming like last night. Though the night is young. I guess the day is better. I ended yesterday and started today with lovely berry flavored barium. Ummm, yumm, NOT. I kept worrying they would keep me waiting for my CT scan and I hadn't eaten in about 12 hours. Was worried about crashes. Luckily I managed. That's a good thing, I think. I went through a whole bunch of clothing my sister gave me and I have to say that I am truly and utterly disappointed. They fit no differently then they did a few months ago when I last tried them. That really bites. It really does. I know the scale hasn't budged much but I thought with a couple of months of decent workouts...I would have lots a couple of inches or something. And I won't even get started on the scale. I'm 170-171 right now. I was down to 167 for 4 days in a row sometime earlier in the month but those days are past. Now I just bounce up and down. That bites too. I just cannot lose anything no matter how hard I try. Basically the same weight for over 2 months. Heck, maybe it is time to accept the fact that I'm done and that I won't get to my goal without plastics (that I cannot afford). I know, I know... I said I could be happy here. Guess I need to embrace that philosophy. I'm really hoping they find something on my CT scan. Anything. Okay, so many not ANYTHING but something. Something fixable. This just bites right now. I hate hurting like this. I've hurt much worse (back) but still. Geez, this is negative. Waaaaaa. Kathy

I'm thinking we all need a vacation, what'dya say? Nice hot beach. White sand. Ocean crashing. Seagulls squalling... Hot, tan, young men in little bikinis serving protein shakes in frosted glasses on a silver tray. More hot, tan, young men rubbing oil over our tight, non-baggy skin, resembling nothing like broom stick skirts... Ahhhh... Paradise...

Hmmm.... Oh, Cabana Boy.... bring me a Nectar... shaken not stirred... That'll work...

ditto to the belly growing after crap eating, ditto to clothes not feeling bigger, ditto to the scale not moving since 1999. Kathy, I am so sorry that you hurt, I can't say I know how u feel, I've never really had a source of unknown pain, but I hope we find out something soon. I'm going to light a candle for you tonite (for all of us) and pray for better days. Keep hanging in there Aliya

Hang in there Kathy! I hope your pain subsides and they find out what in the heck is causing it... and that it's nothing serious. Feel better. I know the scale, etc. is frustrating, but as you reminded us the other day -- I've lost 122 pounds!!!!! (I'm forgetting about the fact that I've been at that point for 7 weeks!) Love ya, Wanda

Kathy, I hate to see you have to go through this! i hope it is over soon! Lori