Interesting...

After posting about going on vacation, I starting thinking and just jotting down things and thought I'd post it here. Interestingly enough (this just came to me) I was out doing running around tonight getting stocked up on my protein powder and vitamins before I go and I'd planned on grabbing something for dinner because I've intentionally let my food run out at home because why shop when we're going to be gone for 2-1/2 weeks?? Anyway, I was saying in my good brain "Go to Subway and get a healthy tuna or seafood or turkey wrap" but MAN my pre-op brain (that is still very fully functional) was saying "Hit McD's and get a cheeseburger, fries, etc." and I was finding myself wanting just "one more binge" (my pre-op binges were 99.9% of the time McD's or some other fast food). I mean, it was STRONG! I could picture myself with the bag of food in my car, I could smell the typical contents of the bag (double 1/4 pounder with cheese, McChicken, double cheeseburger, large fries, 20 piece chicken nuggets with lotsa honey sauce, 1-2 pies and a Sprite) and could literally feel the Quarter Pounder going down my throat and had that 'pre-binge' feeling in a big way, just exactly like pre-op. I've not had it that bad since I've had my surgery. I wanted it like a crack addict wanted a fix. It hit me out of nowhere! I decided right then and there that I wanted it way too bad, it wasn't a good choice for me tonight. So, I did go to Subway. I have to tell you guys, though, that really scared me. I can't tell you the effect that McD's and fast food had on me pre-op, SERIOUSLY like I've heard drug addicts and alcoholics describe their 'fixes'. I have eaten fast-food a couple of times since surgery and that feeling I had tonight was the exact reason why I didn't think that I should eat fast food now. I seriously think it has something to do with the stress and excitement and everything else that goes along with getting ready for vacation because, like I said, I've not had a craving like that even after the time or two that I've had actual "real" fast food type food since May (I'm talking like a couple of fries, a few bites of a burger - not like chili or a salad). Anyway, don't really know why I'm sharing this, but I am! It really scared the bejeebeez out me of, so I guess that's why I'm sharing it - getting it out there so it'll leave me alone! Talk to y'all soon! Michelle

Michelle, You are sharing it because you know you have an audience who can probably really relate to your story. You aren't the only one that has strong cravings, I'm sure. You did great! Glad to realized that wasn't the correct thing to do and you went to the place that would nourish you and not feed the craving. Excellent! Have a great trip! Kathy

I am so proud of you for doing the right thing. And I am especially grateful for your post. It inspires me to know when I get the same feelings, others have been there and PREVAILED. Thanks! Seven

Good for you!