Body Games and Goal

Well, my body is back to it's old tricks. Last Wednesday, I weighed 170. Just hovering around that number. Then Friday I was 171.5. Just great! We were away over the weekend and I definitely ate more carbs than normal but I would say that calorically I didn't change my intake and yesterday I was up to 177. I am NOT JOKING! Today, I'm down to 175 so some of whatever it is - is gone. My body plays games with me. I really believe that this is my body's overreaction to carbs. For this reason, I consider myself highly insulin resistant. I tend to keep things under control by avoiding most carbs except for the non-starchy vegie types. Man oh man does my body overreact to salt (I assume some is salt from a bit of eating out) but most of all to bread-carbs, cracker-carbs, etc. And when I say I ate carbs...Saturday I had 1.5 breaded chicken fingers, two breaded shrimp and 1 french fry. I had a few bites of a piece of SF chocolate cake. The rest was protein rich food, shakes, protein bar and some non-starchy vegies. That's it. That's just an example. I'm not whining about the weight gain at all. To be honest, I'm used to it. I've been down this road time and time again. People are stunned when I say that I can eat so little calories and see multiple pounds gained in a day or couple of days. The thing is...it cannot be "real" weight as I don't intake enough calories to gain one pound let alone multiple pounds. I'm keeping my wits abound me and trying not to give this must thought at all. Trying to keep the proper perspective on this. I met with my surgeon yesterday and basically told him that I'm thrilled with my weight loss. Period. I feel like I'm pretty much at goal except for extra skin weight. If I lose a few more, fine. If I don't, fine too. I am working hard at the gym so I hope to see some rearranging and toning and if weight loss comes with that - fine. The number on the scale is not important to me. What is important is that I feel great, I think I look great, my health is great and I'm getting more and more active. Ahhhhh... Kathy

Well, you certainly look great, Kathy. I mean you've always looked great, but now you look phenomenal and have done a fantastic job. Not focussing on the scale numbers is way easier said than done. I think it's human nature to desire some standard by which to measure progress and the scale is the easiest standard to go by. Weight fluctuations are highly frustrating and it's understandable to express that frustration. I know when my weight fluctuates, I'm bummed for days. Anyway, like you said, it's not a regain of body fat, so I guess we just have to keep that in mind.

Hey, Tracy! Perhaps I'm just talking smack to appease myself that the fact that the scale took a huge jump doesn't bother me when in fact...it has to, right? Sometimes the "logical" me comes out and I break things down to logic (just ask Rich about our conversations) when in fact the emotional side of me is just completely and utterly ticked off that my body reacts harshly and unfairly to certain foods. It is really frustrating that others can eat some starchy carbs and keep on losing and I have to watch it like a hawk and even small quantities set my scale crazy. Waaaaa! I feel better. Kathy