He Dared me???????

Dang! I thought it was just me. I have been through a real period of "not caring", which then makes me mad at myself. I haven't been depressed, per se, but just apathetic. Its only been in the last 2 to 3 weeks. It feels good to know its not just me, and that its normal. And thankfully, my loss has continued anyway. But still, I want to get it right.

Its funny, but I think the only thing keeping me from being depressed sometimes is that I am just keeping my butt busy. With these two night jobs and during the day I can always keep busy with my 3 1/2 year old and housework, I guess its probably been good therapy for me. I still find myself snacking way too much and I stop myself and realize that old habits die hard..and possibly never die. I knew going into this that we would have to deal with our head problems and probably that is the most difficult part. I can only tell you what I have told myself, that is to pray and ask God to help me and encourage me. I live each day reminding myself that what I did in undergoing this surgery probably has added many years on to my life. Now I can be around much longer for my husband and 3 beautiful kids. My prayers are with you Syb. Please know that we all carry a place in our hearts for all our fellow Maysters and in fact everyone who has had this surgery.

Vicki I am so sorryyyyyy! YOu are right. I need to be more thoughtful when someone hasn't posted for awhile!! If its any consolation, I am so happy to see you back now!!! (((((((hugs))))))

To all who posted - I have no words of wisdom today - I know that I have to fight - this surgery is only a tool and I have got to fight - fight for my sanity - fight to exercise - fight to make correct choices according to my regiment per my doctor's orders. There are a lot of people on the board that have a lot more positive things going for them - eg. support groups; however, I know that I can use any excuse I want to to keep from doing what I don't feel like doing and one of those excuses is depression - - another is no energy and I could go on and on, but somewhere along the way I have got to claw my feet into the clay - get off my butt and get to doing something even though I don't feel like it. I hope all the best to all of you. Sybil

Syb, Glad to hear from you! I know I have been feeling a bit down myself lately, the weight loss has slowed and I am left to wonder if I had this major surgery for nothing! It feels like I will never get even close to goal weight at this pace. Just hang in there and know we are always here when you need to vent. Cary

Sounds like you need a vacation to a warm state for the winter, might just help cheer you up. 80 degree winter days, palm trees swaying in the cool ocean breeze, god no wonder why florida is full of damn yankees, hehe just kidding wish you well joe

Hey, I'll take whoever wants to let me stay at their house in Florida or one of the Islands- up on an offer. They would need to provide the plane ticket there. Notice I didn't mention a return trip because I would imagine once I got out of here I would probably never want to come back. Sounds like you are correct - I NEED A VACATION!!!!!!!!

SYB, thanks for your post. I NEED A VACATION as well...where we going? Bahamas, Jamaica...c'mon lets go, all of us!

Aliya; Even though I think I am improving. Mentally and I am losing weight again. I agree it is just the time of year to need a vacation. How about the Bahamas - I think I could rent a condo next to the white sandy beach and lay in the sun hanging skin and all - wrinkles - even allow the sun to make a few more wrinkles - HA! Have a great day.