I'm up to no good!

Well, I am confident that the stricture that I had dilitated last week is coming back. Have all the symptoms again. You know these things are really putting a crimp in my summer plans. Went to the Cancer dr. on Monday and got a good report. We are in the wait and watch mode that is used with non Hodgkins lymphoma. Only one troubling place showed up (with the PET scan) it was in my rectum area it has to be further probed. Will do this in about 3 weeks and see the surgeon the 24th of August regarding my followup and what ever they found out with the exam on that spot. As far as the stricture I am still on LIQUIDS AND I AM SICK OF THEM! I CAN NOT EAT SOLID FOODS AND VERY LITTLE LIQUID - I JUST and and - I know I am always causing trouble - at least that is what Kathy and Becky Sue think. My husband just thinks I am a b***** since I have been so sick. I am really sick and tired of it all. And I am also sick and tired of people telling me in a little while it will get better - I want to feel better yesterday. Hope you all know how to take my sense of humor. Sybil

Syb, Sometimes foks just need to be allowed to be sick-n-tired of being sick-n-tired. You know what I mean? Being sick and not being able to eat anything solida takes a toll on your mood. Hubby just has to continue to be patient - he isn't the one getting sick and not eating. Sorry about the stricture...again. I've heard sometimes it takes a few endoscopies to get it right. Good luck with the probing. Hope the lymphoma stays quiet and in remission. Glad you got a good report. Hugs, lady! Kathy

Thanks Kathy; Hubby, really don't think I am a b**** - he is the most patient person in all the world. I guess i feel like that is all I do any more or at least whine. I just refuse to give up on this and am thankful I had the opportunity to have the surgery. Ijust get jealous and envious of all these folks that are doing so great! Know What I Mean!

I am praying for you, Syb! You are an amazing woman to even have a sense of humor after all you've been though. I'm proud of you, hon. Hugs, Tracy

There is one thing you can say about my life I never have a dull moment - that is unless I get depressed and then watch out. How I hope that I never get severely clinically depressed ever again in my life. I want to live life to the fullest. Thank you for your concern and PRAYERS!!!!!! Sybil

I feel for you Sybil! After just having my 3rd EGD last week I am finally starting to eat and feel like a normal person again! Just hang in there, next year this time when your one hot momma you will think back and be able to say it was all worth it! Cary

Cary, I feel I have already lost enough weight total to say it is worth it to have gotten busy and lost weight before surgery and then what I have lost since surgery. Without this surgery I am confident I would be dead. I have an entire new life now and I am so thankful for it - strictures and all. LOL Sybil

Syb, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this again! You got a license to whine, girl! Lori

Okay! Thank you! whine. whine and whine --- well lets add to that also. I figure I might as well (grin) and (laugh) about it. Life is a trip sometime and if we don't make it a fun trip we will go crazy - right. On the days you don't see me on board you know it has all gotten the best of me. And the last few days I have not been around at all except to sign support pages.

You're a strong one alright!!! You do know how to hang in there. Keep laughing..you'll get better.