Major whining

I go back to the dr on Thursday and might have to have the endoscopy again, third time is a charm?, on Friday. He is going to consult with the other surgeon first and see what he thinks and then let me know Thursday. I don't know what the next step might even be if those don't work. I've been afraid to ask. I am still bruised from the last one, all of the IV attempts. Right now, I feel like dog doo. I should be thin as a rail since I haven't been able to eat and drink like I am supposed to. Not even close. I want to kick, scream and cry so badly that it isn't funny. I'm trying to be adult about this, but it isn't working anymore. It's after midnight and except for 4 small bites of potato salad, and a piece of string cheese, I haven't eaten anything since sometime yesterday, and both made me feel sick. Even my milk and apple juice are making me wanna throw up. Nothing wants to sit very well. My monthly cycle has now lasted almost 2 weeks. My system is so screwed up it isn't even funny. I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. I was cramping so badly that I took my Lortab again and even that didn't knock me out, and it usually does. At least it killed my cramps for a few hours. Anyway, I'm gonna play Sims 2 for a while. At least I can control their lives since I can't do squat about my own. It's either that or sit here and bawl some more but I don't want to wake up Matt. He's worried about me enough as it is. I just wanna get off of this rollercoaster, ya know?

Oh Lisa- I'm so sorry that you are still feeling crappy. I wish that they could get a handle on this, so that you could start feeling better. Keep us posted after you hear back from the doctor. And know that you are in my thoughts. I really do hope you get some relief soon! Best, Dina

Lisa, Honey my heart just goes out to you and your trouble. But I am sure in a few months this time will all be a distant memory. I will say a prayer for you. Please keep us posted on the outcome at the doctors. Heidi

Lisa, I am so sorry to hear about all the trouble your going through. I hope the doctors can finally tell you what's going on to give you some peace of mind. Let us know how you are doing! You'll be in my prayers. ---Sabrina

Lisa, I am praying they will find the answer soon. I understand not being able to eat. Just hang in ther. We are rooting for you. Lisa

Hi. I hope you start feeling better soon. Just think once the doctors work this out, you will finally enjoy the results. I will say a prayer for you and keep you in my thoughts. Good Luck, Shaun