Update, its been a while!

Hello my May family- Its been a while since I have updated so I have alot to say. On 6/1/05 my great grandpa died. It was really really hard for me. We buried him on 6/3/05. He called everyday asking about how I was. Which meant the world to me. The only other people that called while I was in MS for surgery was my aunt Helen, and my cousin, Tina. I still miss him so much. I think about him often. I lost one of the people who cared most for me in the world. Its so hard to even write this w/o crying. He truely was a good good man. He loved his family and we all loved him. Its really hard because everyone else in my family doesn't ask how I am since surgery unless they see me. Which shows they really don't care they are just being polite. Every single day he called. I wish he would have known how much that meant to me. The whole world. Upon him being sick for a while and in the hosptial then his death I haven't been eating good at all. Right after his death I didn't really eat period. I was just so upset. It took me a wee****il I started eating right again. Which I know hasn't helped me w/my weight loss. I just layed around and did practically nothing. Things are better now, but I still think of him often and miss him so much. But he is in heaven now and I'm glad. He is w/my 1st mama and 2nd mama (his 2 wifes). His last words to me was "I love you too". He passed at 9:10 p.m. on 6/1/05. I got rid of my old internet too that is another reason I haven't been on as much. Now we have a faster internet. Since school is out I've had my days and nights mixed up. Which I'm hoping this week gets back to normal considering I have my next Doctor's appointment on 6/23/05. I will be driving there, my dad and mom usually go w/me. My mom is going w/me. She doesn't want me to be alone. My dad has to work and so does hubby. So hopefully me and mom will do good. My hubby's b-day is tomorrow. 6/12/05 He turns 22! We are going fishing w/my dad. I can't wait! I've been wanting to go. Even though I don't bait the hook or touch the fish when I catch it! LOL! So they will be doing all of the work like usual. Here in a bit I'm going to go dig worms w/my nephew and sis. Well I'm going to dig. My nephew, Derrick, is going to touch them! LOL! He can't wait! He loves worms and to get dirty! My sis, Nina, is going incase I need to move something that is too heavy. I will be on full activity on 6/23/05 and pureed hopefully. This full liquids is killing me. As I have heard its the hardest. Boy is it ever! I so want real food!! Thats it for now they should be here soon! Until next time! ~April~ Lap RNY May 13, 2005 21 yrs old, 5'1 233/ 214/ 120

Im sorry to hear about your great grandpa, I am sure he knew how much it meant to you for him to call everyday, because it probably meant the same thing to him, that you were there to talk to. Remember we might not be there for each other in person, but we all share a bond on this site, So if you ever feel down, just remember that there are people who care for you, here. take care and god bless hope you catch a big fish.

April, I'm sorry to hear of your loss. The thing that is so rough about death is that it is so permanent! A real challenge for all of us who may have used food to get through rough times, is that it is not an option for us any more. I wish you peace and love as you weather this difficult time! Lori

April, Just wanted to see my condolences on the loss of your grandfather. Hope your hubby had a nice birthday today and that you had a nice time fishing with your family. Best wishes, Kathy lap RNY 5/20/05 ~ 5'7.75" ~ 276/244/223/160? (consult/preop/curr/goal) Hubby Rich open RNY 8/5/04 ~ 6'5" ~ 450/437/254/250?