I have started the journey!8-):angst:

Hello everyone! I had my surgery on May 24th and returned on May 27th, 2005. I have gone through a rollercoaster of emotions from elation, just before the surgery, to "Oh no, why did I do this to myself." I feel really supported by all of those who write about the emotional portion of their experience, not just the food issues. I wish there could be more exchange about all those very early feelings. Now I am three days post-op and feeling more stable since being out of the hospital. It is truely so wonderful to be home. There are really interesting things I have noticed like 1. rarely feeling hungry 2. getting great pleasure out of the fact that there will be weight loss most weeks rather then dreaded gain and 3. That I am proud of myself for going through this, not just for myself but for my family. I hope everyone allows for those feelings to emerge. What you are about to do or have done already takes courage and fortitude. For those of us who have had the surgery we can safely say that it is not even close to "the easy way out." I would love to start a NYC support group if anyone is interested. I have come upon only one group at the drs office which meets at an impossible time for me. I have tried the "chat room" and it just does not do it for me. So if anyone is interested, e-mail me. I want to thank all of you who take the time to support others. There are people *****ally follow up with important information. Hope to hear from all of you along on this "strange Journey." Robyn from NYC

I too would love to join you but I think that I wouldnt make it in time since I live in L.A But about feelings, I was very regretful for 2weeks. And I didnt follow the liquid diet rules. I do eat now,very small portions of course but I do feel bad that I wasnt able to stick to liquids. Everything that I eat seems to stay down and as soon as I start feeling full I stop. I have over done it in the past and I felt sick. I had to make myself throw up and that was painful to do. I try to stay away from sugar and greasy stuff. I dont feel regretful any more. I am glad that I did this NOW. Now for me is clothes,I dont fit the ones I have now because they are to big and when I go shopping for new ones the size I wear is to big and the next size is to small. I hate that part,so I will not be shopping for a while. xoxoxoox Rosie