May 2 date and I'm soooooo emotional.
I know how you feel. My husband could just look at me yesterday and I'd cry. He had no IDEA what was wrong with me. At one point I was blubbering at him that all I wanted was his support. Of course, he tries to help, but he just doesn't understand how scary this is. My surgery date is May 12 and I'm counting down the days.
You aren't alone.
Jaimie H.
I blubbered the same thing to my husband!! They really don't know how hard or how scary this is. I know he means well, but he just isn't being the support person I need right now I just want him to hold me when I cry even if he doesn't really understand why I am!! Instead, he thinks I am mad at him or something, he says I am having an attitude, when really I am just an emotional basket case!! lol
Its getting closer, and closer, and I am getting more and more scared!!!
-Angie
You're definitely not alone. I too am very emotional. Just discussing the surgery that for me will take place on May 5th is very hard to do.
Thoughts race through my head and then I remember why I am doing it and what the benefits will be. We are going to be heallthier for sure, but we're also going to be able to move around easier, and enjoy our lives a great deal more. So, whenever you get teary just try to imagine that perhaps those are subconcious tears of joy!!!!!!
I understand. While I am excited about this surgery, the risks involved weigh heavily on my mind. I worry about making sure my husband is in a good position in case I die, etc. I also am in the process of formulating my decisions for what to do in case I require extraordinary life saving measures (long term feeding tube, respirator, etc.) so there are no questions afterwards and so my husband does not have to concern himself with those kinds of decisions in a situation like that. So, all this preoccupation with death and potential complications makes me very emotional. So, don't feel like you are the only one!!