Just when I thought I couldn't cry anymore...
You guys are truly the best. I mean it... I hated to even put all this, what's going on with me, into words. The part that bothers me the most is, I know from going to the confernece in Lexi that there are so many women and men in unhappy, mean, hateful, horrible relationships. 30 years of a marriage with no love. And that's not the case here. I love Aaron and he loves me but he needs more than I can give him and I'm just so tired. I can't do it anymore. When I think of what some people have to put up with and stay with, I feel, in a way, very ungrateful.
Thanks so much for your words of encouragement. It means so much to me.
Loving and caring about someone deeply doesn't necessarily mean that you are in love with that person. Loving and caring about someone deeply doesn't necessarily mean that you are able to fufill the other person's needs.
Yes, there are people in relationships/marriages that are abusive and destructive and yes those people deserve to be free of it and be free to be happy. But, everyone deserves to be happy, Becky, including you.
My first marriage wasn't abusive or destructive. I just wasn't happy for many reasons. I knew I deserved that and I knew I wouldn't find it with Bill. We remain friendly (not really friends) to this day.
I hope that you and Aaron continue to be good friends and great parents of Livie together.
I hope that if you want a relationship with someone in the future... you find a person you love, you care about, you are in love with and for whom you naturally can fufill their needs and they for you.
Hugs 'n stuff,
Kathy