Update on me.

Well, after my "cyber-paper" confession about my struggles with anorexia, and the wonderful words of encouragement from all of you guys, I have to admit that I have done better the last couple of days. I even broke down and bought some of the unjury protein and it's not to shabby if I do say so myself! My protein count for the last three days has been around 50. Horrible still I know, however this for me is huge compared to the 0 I have been getting. I'm shooting for 60 today and so far at 9:36AM, I've already gotten around 26 in so I am well on my way. Oscar (the grouchy pouch once again) has definately shrunk up and it's almost been like starting over and teaching him to accept food again. I'm not completely back on liquids, but softer foods do better. The scales went up 2 pounds and at first, I completely freaked. Then my loving husband said, "Fine, lose those two pounds again and die." Harsh words, but actually just what the doctor ordered. I need those swift kicks in the arse to get me going. I have an appointment with the new OB/GYN in my doctor's office for today. She's a WLS grad (5 years out) herself and I've made up my mind that if I cannot bring myself to say the words to her, I'm going to print out my confession and give it to her so that I can get the help that I need. I know that although the last couple of days have been better, I'm still a long way from a full recovery and I will have bad days again. Thanks again for all of your loving thoughts and support! I don't know what I would do without my OH family especially the 2005 Maysters.

Heather, Glad to hear that you are making steps towards your recovery and health! Good going on the protein. Hope the doctor's appointment went very well today. Let us know how it went. Yes, difficult days lie ahead but over time with work and support and tough love - those days will become fewer and far between. This isn't an all-or-nothing proposition. Any moment of any day you can take that moment to work on something and move forward with it. And when things are difficult, just pick yourself back up, dust yourself off and continue moving forward. Keep being strong! Hugs, Kathy

Good luck, Heather! I know you can do it! Hugs, Tracy