I'm screwing this all up...

I think it all has been said already. Debra definitely had some good questions there. The "why" of things. I think you answered some of it. I think falling back into old behaviors is part of it. The sneaking of food. Yes, far better to sneak 1/2 a cheese sandwich then 3 full ones but it is the act of sneaking itself that is the true issue. I definitely hear ya and others on the transference thing. Me, addiction to the internet. No, not me of all people! I'm on at work and then at home except now that we are down at home. Different than alcohol or spending or is it? Takes too much time away from productiveness. Obsessiveness, a bit. Compulsion, maybe. Who knows. We'll have to reinstate the Snackers Club! Glad you are recognizing the problem and analyzing what it means. Go, Becky! Hugs, Kathy

Becky, We are all 16 to 17 months out now. The honeymoon is over. This surgery doesn't fix our heads. The same heads that got us to the place where we'd need a surgery! I struggle with grazing, I struggle with eating small amounts, I struggle with shopping and charging clothes on my credit card that I don't need. I can't tolerate alcohol, so that isn't a problem for me, but, maybe would be if I could. The reality is that I'm still a compulsive person. Luckily, the one good compulsion I've picked up is exercise. I exercise 6 days a week for 75 to 90 minutes a day. I'm not going to try and change that one! But, I am actively working on the other compulsions that aren't so good for me. I guess we will all have to keep working on this until the day we have one foot in the grave... Big hugs to all of us! Lori 384/233/199

There are just so many feelings and emotions as read everyones response to Beckys post. I agree agree agree agree!! Now that my daughter is back in school my habits have gotten worse. It is like anytime I get a little bored or lonely I eat. You mean I shouldn't eat a large bag of sweedish fish in an afternoon? But they were on sale only 62 cents on clearance at CVS! And you just can't exercise 8 hours a day. It definetly curbs my appetite but I do have to leave the gym eventually. So sometimes I have a glass of wine in the afternoon and that just turns into more and more and usually an afternoon nap. Now that makes alot if sense! But people keep telling me how great I look so I figure even doing all the wrong stuff I can look great! Now that is logical. I am going to actually try to clean my house today...that should keep me way busy enough not to eat!