Wednesday: Whatchya eating today?

Hey all! Just killing a few before class, thought I'd check in! Pre B - Nectar shake B - 2 eggs, scrambled, 3 slices bacon MS - sm apple, pb crackers L - salad with cottage cheese, olives, chicken breast and tuna AS - turkey and cheese on crackers AS - going to stop at Starbucks on the way to class D - dunno, depends what time I get home and how ambitious I feel Water - doing good, about 100oz Exercise - nope, but I'll take the long way through campus tonight Vits - on track!

Pre-B: Protein shake (scoop and a half IDS vanilla cinnamon) mixed with decaf coffee, half and half and sweet 'n low over ice - shaken not stirred. Cup of coffee w/ non-dairy creamer, minimoos and sweet n' low B: Deli buffalo sliced chicken, 2 slices (1-1.5 oz) american cheese L: Green Giant green beans w/ almonds with a dab of whipped butter, tuna salad (canned tuna, mayo, SF pickle relish) 1 York SF peppermint patty S: 1 slice provolone, protein shake (scoop of Nectar lemon tea) mixed w/ water D: Greek stuffed meatloaf a la Rich w/ homemade tzaziki sauce S: Hopefully a protein shake above and beyond all else... need to reprioritze things a bit - healthier for me then SF stuff or cheese with the extra fat in it Water: 80 oz thus far Exercise: we'll see Vitamins: 2 doses of calcium, rest to come - forget to pack my vits today so I've got some catching up tonight! Kathy

breakfast-pork roll egg cheese lunch-steak and cheese dinner-goin out

Too much. Way too much.... Started out very well then things went straight in to the crapper after lunch. B - Atkins protein shake late lunch - about a cup of shredded wheat with skim milk snack - a piece of store bought sugar free cake (yellow cake with vanilla icing). It was soooooo good!!!! snack #2 - I'm sure there was something else but I can remember what it was and I don't have my food journal with me... Dinner - turkey meatloaf, baked acorn squash, whole wheat tortilla snack #3 - s/f pudding cup snack #4 - 100 calorie pack popcorn snack #5 - 10 saltines and an ounce of low fat cheese I also popped in a grape or two everytime I passed the fruit bowl. Needless to say, I wasn't hungry when I had any of the snacks.

Im glad I wasnt the only one who had a bad day yesterday. I ate way more than you Tracy. I started messing up right after breakfast and it seemed like I was stuffing my face every hour with something. Im so ashamed of it all I cannot even list it. Trying to redeem myself today, still not the best, and its only 1230pm now. Im so mad at myself. I gained 3 pounds this morning and I can bethcha its no****er wieght. I ate more yesterday than any other time since surgery. I was reminded of pre op days and last night before going to bed I just cried thinking about what I had done all day. I felt awful yesterday and did not like the what I was doing but continued to eat uncontrollably, bindging. Today is even harder getting back to eating normal. I have a family reunion to go to on Saturday and Im considering not going. I have already bought the stuff to make a dish to take and told everyone I was coming. I hate when I do this to myself. I had two occasions yesterday where my sugar crashed due to junky carbs. I know the only thing to do is to get up and brush myself off and start again. Its just so hard and discouraging after a day like yesterday. I have thought about going walking today but its weird, when I exercise I gain. I dont know if I could handle seeing the scale go up any more. I am over my weight limit. This morning when I got up I felt like I had a hang over, a food hang over that is. My belly is all swollen and bloated. Im really hating myself right now. I feel like a fat cow!! Candy I dont know if I will be able to keep showing my face around here

Just noticed this, Candy. We all have regrettable days, but you are right - just have to get up and start again. "Failure" is not falling, but rather failure is staying down after you fall. I know you will get back in the saddle, if you haven't done so already. We've all come way too far to become discouraged now. I know exactly how you feel. I've had entire binge weekends and was 8 pounds heavier, bloated beyond belief, and extremly disgusted the following Monday. This happened a few weeks ago, in fact. You're not alone. We have ALL done it at some point. I'm not saying I won't do it again. Heck, I have midterms coming up in a few weeks and who knows, I just may eat my way through them. But I know if I do, I WILL get back on track and I know you will too. Hang in there, sister! Hugs, Tracy P.S. You'd better keep showing your face around here! Don't make me have to come out there and drag you back here!