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I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired!! I went to the doc yesterday for a follow-up of my back/abdomen pain and he's thinking now that I may have a bulging disk in my back which is pinching a nerve - I forget which one he said it was, but it's the one that runs along the bottom of my ribs in the back and around the side below my ribs. I have to get an MRI to confirm it. Yesterday my back was feeling a LOT better, today, too but I've just not been feeling all that hot anyway. I've not been able to eat much in the last 2-3 weeks (I've lost almost 20 pounds in the last 3 weeks - going from about 205 a few weeks ago, 196 exactly two weeks ago, to 186 yesterday - and I can't even feel good about being in ONE-derland cuz it's scary!) and today I've felt nauseous and just kind of a "full" feeling in my stomach all day. I threw up my dinner - not because it got stuck or anything just cuz I was nauseous. And it was homemade chicken soup! Nothing harsh! Sigh... I went from my fibro pain, to my back pain and having to cancel my surgery, to now having (possibly) some stomach virus!! My doc has scheduled an appointment with a GI doc, (did this when I was having all of that pain) but that's not until 9/21. I just want to feel good! Is that too much to ask? Michelle

Hugs Michelle, I hope you're feeling better very soon!!! You deserve to feel GOOD! Wanda

Aw, Sweety, when it rains, it pours, doesn't it? I hope you start feeling better soon!

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We're here with ya MIchelle, Some times we find ourselves in what I call the " Don't Know " place. Where answers are elusive and we're not sure WHAT it is exactly that we're dealing with. Personally I find it very hard to be in such a place cuz as humans, we DO like to KNOW - so we can DO something. It is very hard to be still and not DO anything. But in the being still , peace can seep in and surround us and allow us the grace to bear up under the difficulty. Light will come. I pray for you a gift of peace and comfort in this storm of illness and questions and awaiting further tests and exams to bring a diagnosis. It brings to mind an old friend who was really going through a hard place. She was hurting physically and emotionally and her 'storm at sea' was raging. We met for prayer and she prayed for a gift of { bouyancy } so that IF the storm raged on, she would not sink but be able to stay afloat. I like that word picture. Bouyancy, I wish that for you also. ** I would think it appropriate to request a much sooner appt. w/GI doc. It may be good to run a scope down to inspect the pouch . Something is making you It is a gracious act of kindness to yourself... to be a squeeky wheel. You are cared about and matter to us. Mary

I am so sorry you are not feeling well.I hope they figure out something so you can be pain free.Its not fair for sure and I know you are very busy too which doesnt help.here is a hug from Florida.I havent been keeping up on the site too much lately, I know you were feeling pretty well before so sorry to hear you arent well.Is your family helping you? I know its hard to let others help cause we are so use to doing everthing ourselves.Hope you are felling better and I am thinking about you ~Laura~