Drama

I will try to make a long strory short... A long time ago I used to be a drama infected,rude, and obnoxious not so pretty person,(I'm talking about fist fights, cuss ya mama out) being such a person, I had a lot of like friends. Because I'm such a cool person now, I no longer associate with said friends. My mom calls me last nite, and tells me one of my former friends had showed up at the house, and wanted to talk to me...so this girl gets on the phone sobbing her eyes out. And she starts apologizing for not believeing me when I told her that her man was cheating. I had to apologize for taking so much glee in reporting the fact, and then for exhibiting such rage when she didnt believe me. I have no idea why I am saying all of this, I am sooooooooo not that person any longer, but anyway we met up last nite, along with some other folks we went to school with and, had a great time. I am really looking forward to cultivating a pure friendship with this woman, because I can tell she's a changed person as well. And it was wonderful to have all of these people not recognize me, and when I told them who I was, wonder what had changed. Thanks for listening! Aliya

Aliya, I can understand what you're saying. Many times when we're as large as we were, we put up so many defenses and it's almost as if "If I make you not like me because I'm a biotch then you won't notice that I'm so fat." Basically putting the focus on something other than the fat we have on us. I would overcompensate not with meanness but with my intelligence and being overly nice. I would buy things for people to make them like me, get into deep, intellectual conversations or "put my smart on" and name some obscure fact or use a huge word or something like that so that people would think "Oh, she's so nice!" or "Oh, she's so smart!" instead of "Oh, she's so fat!" Ya know what I mean? Michelle

Michelle, I definitely know what you mean, to me it was like my other self...I was also extremely depressed when I was "fat", and I'm sure that had something to do with it. Aliya

Aliya, I'm glad that the changes that you've seen in yourself are so positive. That's awesome. To not only get healthy but to also change how you interact and relate to others is such positive ways is excellent. Major kudos to you. Kathy