15 MONTH ROLL CALL!

Kathy you are such a cut up ! That's twice today you made me laugh Mary

I can't believe it has been this long it seems like just yesterday. I am doing better. I am still at a plateau but hopefully soon will break that. At least I'm not gaining anymore. I just moved and have been doing my exercising by moving boxes around and running to the dumpster with boxes and trashbags. I haven't been eating the best lately but hopefully now that I have purged my cabinets of all that bad food I will be able to stay on track better. I was proud of myself tonight that I didn't make the potatoes I had out on the counter to make. I will just use them to thicken soups and stuff. My water aerobics is over now and I miss that but its just way to hot to be outside doing that. I moved not to far from the mall so I can go walking there. I start back to school in a few weeks so it will be hard to fit in the exercising. Hopefully I can find a water aerobics class at the indoor pool not to far from campus. I really liked doing that. I do some exercising when I do physical therapy and hopefully my doc will allow me to do it at the Fayetteville facility because they have a pool there and the stuff I have been doing it at the Bentonville place makes my pain level go way up and I end up in tears on the way home because it hurts to much. I'm glad to see all of you. Jan

Congrats on your new place! Hope you find a water aerobics class near school. What are you studying? Nice to see you! Kathy

I reached my goal, but still want to lose 5 more! Why, I dont know..but want to. What I really need to do is to get more tone and to do some strength training. I do the 45 minutes of aerobics 4-5 x a week, but never seem to get the pilates or the muscle building in that I have in mind for 3-4x a week. ooops! my bad! As far as food goes, I can eat anything just about without getting sick, but I try to be good. I have a protein shake mon-fri for breakfast, and on weekends I have eggs and bacon. I eat healthy lunches and try to limit my carbs to the healthier carbs (fruits and whole grains). I do have some bad ones from time to time. I struggle with my annonymity of having my surgery and who I have told. I feel that I have an eating disorder and if I were in a 12 step program, such as AA, I would keep that between others in AA and not be spreading it to everyone. I am very private and dont want to tell everyone. This has been very much debated on the main board and I get so worked up about it. I get so angry when people say I am lying because I do not tell everyone i had surgery. I just dont feel comfortable talking about my eating disorder to ALL. But if someone with Morbid Obesity asks for my help, I will talk to them about it, certainly. I have also found that now that I am thin, I have struggled with people saying "you are too thin". Before I was "too heavy" and now I am "too thin" sooooo I can not win..... lol. but I feel better and healthier than ever in so many ways. And I continue to learn on this journey. Jess

Jess, I respect your decision to keep your surgery private. Everyone has to follow what they are comfortable with and what is in their heart. Are you finding that now that you are goal you have to either revise that or find something else to work on? Something to focus on? Kathy

Hi Kathy, Well, I really need to focus on doing more strength training. Although with the "loose skin" even a billion bench presses wouldnt help I am told...(haha - if that is even the right terminology??) I have been told by a very handsome young muscle head that he would give me some lifting routines that will help. He tells me that in 6 months my arms and thighs will improve. I will focus on those next... and then the belly after that. I cant seem to focus on everything at once. I think its my age!! haha If I lose more weight in my face, I will look scary. If only we could say... lose it here, here and here, AND NOT HERE.... lol. gee, arent we funny when we get picky?? I will tell you this. I cant wear clothing that doesnt cover me to my elbows and down to my knees. IT IS THAT BAD, in my opinion!!. I AM VERY PARANOID. I have not been to a beach or a public pool since losing the weight. I was hiding my body before, and I am still hiding it. Plastic surgery is not an option for me $$ wise and even if I had the $$ I do not have the "GAHUNAS" lol Kathy, you are a sweetie for being so caring to all of us. HOW ARE YOU DOING, and how is your husband doing with all of his medical issues? Jess

I am doing ok. I have lost 136.5 I still want to lose at least another 76 pounds to get me below 200. i am doing ok actually feeling sick at the moment so I will post more later.

Hope you are feeling better!

Took me a bit to post to this.... not feeling real sociable about my wt loss but then figured I needed to be accountable to someone.... Am doing okay... not at my/surg goal of 150.... much to my dismay... really have not lost anything since about march.... am at my clothing size goal of a 10... and really look pretty good... so am pretty pleased there... have gained from 165 to about 170-172 the last month or so... too many calories... too many carbs, to many hormones as I started on birth control pills and have had a bit of a struggle to find the right dosage.. so have been hormonally eating..... consistent exercise is still a struggle.... being gone 12 hours a day 5 days a week and trying to keep up with ALL the housework, groceries, shopping, 5yo etc is tiring.... Nothing but excuses I know.... but thats my life right now... sooo today am frustrated... however its been a good protein day today... but gotta up the water as well this afternoon... I still have fat days and not so fat days... much like everyone else Im sure... a friend who had not seen me in almost a year told me how wonderful I looked... made my day.... so, I soldier on..... and keep plugging away.. wish you all the best. Karen

Hi Karen, So great to see you post ! I remember when I began taking birth control to regulate my pms. I had a problem gaining weight sort of suddenly. I remember the nurse telling me the hormones were stored in the fat cells. (that was several yrs ago as I'm menopausal now ) So the bc pills may truly be a culprit. Your schedule seems terribly hectic and stressful. I am praying that somewhere in the midst of juggling all the responsibilities you can discover a few special moments just for YOU . When you feel refreshed and revived everything takes on a different hue. Be kind to you, cuz you ARE worth it ! So good you took time to post Mary