Weight the same/now gain!! Plus whats been up me. Sorry its so long

Hello- I have been a lil upset and not having the best time with food either. I have gotten burned out on almost every food. Lately I have stopped eating meat because I'm SO SO SO burned out on them all. I have been eating carbs, and some sweets. I tend to eat sweets a week before that time of the month and then the week of it. Thats 1/2 the month. Ugh. Not only has that been going on. I have been so upset w/my college. I have been there 4 years. 3 years full time and one year part time. I lack ONE class before I have everything I need for nursing school. I got a D so I have to retake it. I have a 2.77 GPA. Which I screwed up two years of college and have been struggling to get my GPA up. Which as you can see I have. I think I did pretty darn good to bring it up that high from under a 2.0 It was a 1.6 I had some issues and let things stand in my way. I am trying to get into a LPN program this September, please pray for me that I do. I appreciate it so much! In May it hit me tho, I'm 22 years old been in college 4 years and should graduate this year or at the latest the next year. Guess because friends in high school graduated. Ugh I screwed up. And oh my gosh student loans I don't want to even go there. Lets just say its gonna be like a nice house payment by the time I'm through. But thats not all, I live w/my grandparents and they love me of course they just want me to finish college w/a degree in something! LOL! They said they would give me five years living here. This will be the 5th year. Thats why I'm so desperately trying to get in to the LPN program. It takes one year. I will start in September and Graduate in August. I NEED THIS! I know its my last chance. Then on top of all that my hubby and I do want to get a place of our own, of course it will be hard and we will miss the safety of the house w/my grandparents. We are very very close. Then I have been thinking about wanting a child about when I'm 25 which I can't do w/out getting into a nursing program lets pray its the LPN one this september! Its at Dresden there is one in Paris but I want the one closest in Dresden. When I pray I always make sure I say the one in Dresden. LOL! Ugh as you can see things are i guess just stressing me. I also have to work and with the new store more hours. I have to pay for the care. And we are also trying to save money for the down payment of a home. I'm praying and having faith that I will be in the LPN program at Dresden in September. Which means I will be moving out six months after August. My grandma wants me to wait so I know how much my loans will be then we can look for a house. So you see I have a plan I just gotta pray and have faith things are on the track I guess you would say. Well I started this about weight gain and ended up telling everyone what has been bothering me so much. And you know what it feels so good to talk about it. Thanks for listening to it all. I'm so glad I have my May family! Sorry I haven't been posting alot as you can see I've been stressing LOL! Oh yea I find out in August if I am in the LPN program or not! Please pray and wish me luck! Thanks again! April Lap RNY May 13, 2005 22 yrs old, 5'1 231 / 137.5 / 120

Hey there April! Hang in there girl. You know what I like about you? You have a plan!!!! Just stick with it and you'll be sailing. Hard work does pay off. You've done a lot to get that GPA up. It took me 5 years to get my degree because my major changed several times. I was 23 when I graduated from school. I got married the year before that, had a baby at exactly 25 (you and I had the same goal there) and I thought things were going great! Then I had a preemie, unexected of course...I was furious about it because I'm such a planner (more scared than anything though) and I had to stay home her entire first year...that hit our checkbook hard! I had student loans too...almost done with those babies! Anyway, things have a way of working out. Keep your chin up and you'll be A-ok. Glad you have some supportive family to help you out. Will keep you in prayer. Ana

April, I'm sure that all will work out for you. I'm with Ana... I like that you have goals and plans to get to those goals. Sounds like great support from your family and hubby too. That's great. Good luck with the LPN program! Kathy

April, You are incredible! Look at how much you have accomplished! You are well on your way to your degree, and I'm sure you will have no problem getting into your nursing program. You have started your life with your husband, and you have great family around you to cheer you on. It's hard not to measure up to others around you. I graduated high school in '89, did 2 years of college, then moved to Las Vegas with my later to be husband. I was out of school for a while, went back part time, and I didn't actually get my degree until the 1999! That's a ton of time! I was depressed when my little sister cruised through college in 4 years (at a very tough private school, no less), but I realize now that if you have a plan it will all work out. I am now the proud Vice President of a private investigation firm. I never thought I would be in the position I am in. I think that recommitting yourself to your eating/lifestyle plan will help other areas in your life fall into place. If you are feeling out of control about your eating, it might make other things that are even beyond your control seem insurmountable. But, I believe in you, and I know you can do it. Finances will always have a way of working themselves out -- they just do. Your nursing school acceptance is in my thoughts -- and I'm sure you will be posting a celebratory note on this board in August! Keep your chin up! It supports that beautiful smile of yours! Angie

April, All I can say is hang in there...you'll be fine, remember prayer works!

You don't give yourself enough credit, April. Like the others have said, you have accomplished a lot. You are so young and you have already accomplished more than a lot of people much older than you. I'm with Angela, I started college in 1989 and didn't finish my bachelor's until 1997 - 8 years later. I'm "still" in school getting an MPA this time, and at this rate will be lucky to have a husband, much less a child, by the time I'm 40! (I'm currently 35 and not even dating). My student loans are approaching $100K, I'm also trying to pay off my credit cards and save up a house downpayment because I am tired of renting. Sounds like we're both facing some of the same challenges, but we both have a plan and that's half the battle! Anyway, I will be praying for you. I have every confidence that you will reach your goals and even surpass them! Continue reaching for the stars, sweetie, cuz I know you will get there! Hugs, Tracy

Hi April, Your Maysters have been so inspiring and supportive! I think it was probably truly healing just to have a place to let it all roll out . You are going thru alot and have a lot on your mind I will pray for you on all the issues you shared. May you recieve a special grace today of comfort and peace . There is a plan at work and you have a future and a hope. Be encouraged and let the loving words of your pals here cradle your heart and remind you, it will all be OK. Mary