WOW!!!! I am soo in this boat and I feel very bad about it...I am also a sugar addict here is my morning so far 1% milk with carnation bfst. drink 1cup 1 granola bar with choc. chips (not the healthy kind) 3 mini kit kat bars 2 string cheese 1 smaller size granola bar with choc. chips 1 cheese and turkey sand. on this great flax seed bread (ate the whole thing including the 2 slices of bread, some days I can do that some I can only eat half....need to slow down I think) about 6 0z of water... by the way it is now 12:30... I will try to check this board more because I also have been wondering what is wrong with me and feeling tired and depressed at times and great at other times...but for me I am realizing that for almost 10 years I did not have a period due to my weight and my poly cycstic ovaries, now since surgery period every month and all the fun hormones that go with it...I am wondering if it is just my normal cycle and I have just not recognized it for what it is until now when I start to think I am manic depressive or something!!!! We do need to keep posting I also lurk alot but you all help me sooo much....I am also determined to get some photos out there now too! Love to you all! Lisa

Jeez, I really love you all. I've been MIA on the board too because I've been such a bad bad bad example ...... I started regaining weight right after I hit my 100-lb mark -- like 2-4 lb a month! Partly eating too much fruit, partly depression, partly eating too many protein bars, partly total lack of exercise ... blah blah blah and now I'm up 15lb! Actually, September was the first month I managed to hold steady at 172, and I'm fighting hard to not go higher than that in October -- but there have been days when the scale said 175. This after having gotten down to 156-158 in April. Yesterday I pulled on a pair of pants I wore last winter and THEY WERE TOO SMALL!!!!!!!! This is the wrong direction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've sworn to join the health club that's right across the street from where I work (but I haven't done it yet). I've sworn to stop eating between meals (but haven't done that yet either). Thank god for all of you, helping me face facts and come out of the closet with this issue. You can do it, I can do it, and gosh darn it let's DO IT. Donna

Julie- Sorry to hear you're feeling depressed. I've been eating all the wrong things too, so I'm not about to go around assaulting others for eating sugar. I'll do my best to reconstruct today's eating: 2 slices raisin bread, spray I Can't Believe It's not butter coffee with half and half more coffee with half and half about 2 quarts of coffee with half and half did I mention the coffee addiction? 2 graham crackers with peanut butter (2 sheets, 8 crackers, to be exact) 1 full serving of Stouffer's lasagna (yes, i can fit it in my pouch), minus some of the noodles that I just didn't want 3 Dove milk chocolates 1 glass Chardonnay 1 nap 1 Lean Pockets ultra pizza pocket 6 Dove chocolates 3 cups of coffee with half-n-half OINK OINK OINK OINK OINK So here's what I think, Julie. I think you and I need to up our protein intake in a BIG way. Every time I turn around, another study confirms that protein and satiety are related. No way either of us is ever going to stop munching without some protein to make us feel full. You did better than I did with the turkey and cheese combo. The lean pockets ultra have 20 g protein (maybe more?) each for their 200 cal. But it's like sawdust wrapped around some yummy filling. And step away from the Lil Debbies. If you are going to eat sugar, go for the good stuff. I can't imagine ever having my sweet tooth satisfied on one of those waxy chemical things. Now, the pineapple upsidedown cake, that sounds most divine. In the meantime, get the depression checked out. You wouldn't want to assume it's just depression if it's low iron or low B12. And if it IS depression, you can treat that and maybe dodge some of the eating. Big hugs to you! Susan the oinker

I have beem MIA on here for a long while. I think I am suffering from a spell of slight depression. I am so sorry....I really miss all of you and I would love for us to start up our food diaries on here again. I REALLY need it. I am eating so bad and I actually have gained a few lbs. It is SOOO scarey and I need to nip it in the bud. I have eaten way too much junk food today....you will see by part of my food diary below....I can't believe I will admit all of this 1/2 cupcake 30min later 3/4 egg on toast 30min later 1/2 cupcake 1/4 of the egg on toast that was left over 1/2 cup cake (slit my throat & smack my hand) 1/2 cup cake (the kind I am eating are the little Debbie ones) 2 slices of turkey rolled w/a slice of cheese I made homemade pineapple upside down cake(like I need that in the house) I have eaten a bite here and there for the last hour or so. I did drink 6oz of skim milk and a little water today on the plus side SO as you can see...I have become a complete sugar addict again. I do not know how to stop and feel out of control most days. I guess I need a meal plan from you guys....I am hoping we can get this board jump started again. Huge to all Nat.... I am SO sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. YOu are in my prayers....I guess you can follow my eating plan..you will be sure to stop losing.... I am not trying to be funny...just trying to lighten the mood. HUGS to you and I miss all of your advise. xoxoxo Julie

Hi...I have no REAL info to give you but I was curious enough to do a search, and it seems the pernicious anemia might be the cause. Here's a link to the one tiny thing I found: http://www.labdat.com/kbase/default.asp?function=tests&subfunction=query&testid=%7BC53697C4-A841-11D3-AA0C-0050047C9DF8%7D Do let us know what the doctors say about this. I hope nothing is amiss (other than the pernicious anemia), but do be sure that THAT is under some form of control. Good for you for knowing your own body well. Hugs, Susan