How quickly things change....

Here is my latest post in my WLS journal.... the day started out so well too. Well I haven't lost any weight since my last post... in fact, I've gained weight. I'm now at 170. This is no doubt due to the increased amounts of soda, cookies, chips, ice cream, etc.... I've been consuming. Bad Jessica!!!! I've been trying to work out more and I want to start riding my bike and running/walking outside after work. My biggest issue is food and water. Small detail right? Honestly though I feel like I need to relearn everything in order to start back on track to losing weight. I have 35 pounds to lose now and if I could go without food and still maintain full functional health I would. Oh yeah and if I had the will power to pass by all the yummy food and say NO I could do that.... I can't & I don't. Sigh. I started seeing a therapist a couple months ago to try to work out my body image issues but I'm going to switch therapists as this one seems like she's falling asleep when I'm talking. (Eyes slowly closing and everything!) I also don't feel like she really cares about what will work in my life. I have to keep telling her that the reason I can't plan to have celery as a snack is because I don't like it and I will never buy it. She seems to think this isn't a big deal. She tells me "not all food has to taste good".... ummm - YEAH IT DOES! Who is this woman??? Anyway - I'm going to try to make small changes and see if that works instead of making them all at once. I'm totally panicing inside when I think that I can only eat this at this time and I can't have anything else until this time and OMG no more soda ever.... I've already broken down today and had 2 fun size candy bars, 4 Hershey Kisses and now a bottle of Caffeine Free Diet Coke. So much for restrictions eh? On the bright side, I had a cup of green beans and shrimp for lunch so that was under 250 calories. Baby steps.... baby steps.... baby steps....

Hello gorgeous, Speaking as someone with similar issues, here are a couple of ideas: For a chocolate fix, have you tried Viactiv? These are calcium-packed chews (you'll find them in the vitamin section of the grocery store), last a long time in your mouth and only 20 calories each. Like everything else you can't eat too many of them, but they're better than a Hershey kiss for a quick fix. I also use SF cocoa or SF instant breakfast with milk for the same reason -- helps satisfy need for chocolate, takes a longer time to finish and sneaks in some nutrients. You can take a long stick of celery and fill it with a tablespoon of peanut butter. Eat it in small bites. It tastes great, fills you up like plain celery doesn't, and sneaks in some protein along the way. Today I'm going to try to satisfy my snack demon with some SF jello. Don't know if that will work, but at least it will keep my mouth busy (and out of trouble) for a little while. Can't help with the soda issue; that's the ONE thing it turned out I wasn't addicted to (* thanking god for small favors*) Baby steps is really the way to go. I'm setting goals now in 5-lb increments, which seems to help make them more achievable. GOOD LUCK, and thanks for sharing. You've come such a long way and look fantastic, you're an inspiration. Donna