HELLO ALL.......

I have beem MIA on here for a long while. I think I am suffering from a spell of slight depression. I am so sorry....I really miss all of you and I would love for us to start up our food diaries on here again. I REALLY need it. I am eating so bad and I actually have gained a few lbs. It is SOOO scarey and I need to nip it in the bud. I have eaten way too much junk food today....you will see by part of my food diary below....I can't believe I will admit all of this 1/2 cupcake 30min later 3/4 egg on toast 30min later 1/2 cupcake 1/4 of the egg on toast that was left over 1/2 cup cake (slit my throat & smack my hand) 1/2 cup cake (the kind I am eating are the little Debbie ones) 2 slices of turkey rolled w/a slice of cheese I made homemade pineapple upside down cake(like I need that in the house) I have eaten a bite here and there for the last hour or so. I did drink 6oz of skim milk and a little water today on the plus side SO as you can see...I have become a complete sugar addict again. I do not know how to stop and feel out of control most days. I guess I need a meal plan from you guys....I am hoping we can get this board jump started again. Huge to all Nat.... I am SO sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. YOu are in my prayers....I guess you can follow my eating plan..you will be sure to stop losing.... I am not trying to be funny...just trying to lighten the mood. HUGS to you and I miss all of your advise. xoxoxo Julie

Julie- Sorry to hear you're feeling depressed. I've been eating all the wrong things too, so I'm not about to go around assaulting others for eating sugar. I'll do my best to reconstruct today's eating: 2 slices raisin bread, spray I Can't Believe It's not butter coffee with half and half more coffee with half and half about 2 quarts of coffee with half and half did I mention the coffee addiction? 2 graham crackers with peanut butter (2 sheets, 8 crackers, to be exact) 1 full serving of Stouffer's lasagna (yes, i can fit it in my pouch), minus some of the noodles that I just didn't want 3 Dove milk chocolates 1 glass Chardonnay 1 nap 1 Lean Pockets ultra pizza pocket 6 Dove chocolates 3 cups of coffee with half-n-half OINK OINK OINK OINK OINK So here's what I think, Julie. I think you and I need to up our protein intake in a BIG way. Every time I turn around, another study confirms that protein and satiety are related. No way either of us is ever going to stop munching without some protein to make us feel full. You did better than I did with the turkey and cheese combo. The lean pockets ultra have 20 g protein (maybe more?) each for their 200 cal. But it's like sawdust wrapped around some yummy filling. And step away from the Lil Debbies. If you are going to eat sugar, go for the good stuff. I can't imagine ever having my sweet tooth satisfied on one of those waxy chemical things. Now, the pineapple upsidedown cake, that sounds most divine. In the meantime, get the depression checked out. You wouldn't want to assume it's just depression if it's low iron or low B12. And if it IS depression, you can treat that and maybe dodge some of the eating. Big hugs to you! Susan the oinker

Can I join the carb club too?!?! I've been maintaining my weight loss but I'm sure if I would nip the carbs in the but even a little bit I'd probably lose some more weight. I've become a pretty good grazer. PUT ME OUT TO PASTURE I graze so much. The old habits are creeping back. Can we talk about coffee? Wholey crap I'm now drinking 4shot grande lattes (I justify it by thinking i'm getting my milk intake with it however-----ZING). I'm pretty sure I could start a StarBucks in my basement and I could be my own best customer;) Thanks for letting me know I'm not alone. You guys are great!! PennyB

Susan, I about peed my pants laughing at your commentary. You are incredible! The person that I love most to talk to is the person who not only is taking responsibility for your own actions, but also lightening the mood for the person who is not taking it so lightly. That is a great gift to have, and a great lesson too. Not to beat yourself up, but to pick yourself up and start over 10 times a day if you need to. Thanks for the pick me up! You made me smile! Kathleen

Reading your post is like me writing it....I have not made the best food choices, have not felt well AT ALL...and am frankly down right depressed not sure if it's the combo of everything or what...for a few months i haven't felt good tired and the past week all i do is cry and seriously can not get enough energy up on the weekend to get my a@@ off the couch...i work full time have a 3 yo and a very dependent husband (control OCD) wonderful man but lately everything is piling up i feel like i have spent the last year and some trying so hard to be healthy and I feel mentally and phsically worse than ever.....so i went this morning to get all my labs ran again see my wls on tues of next week...and frankly am praying he says something is wrong so i don't feel so CRAZY....i have an appt with a family therapist on the 24th to go over my meds just started wellbutrin ( not sure if that is part of the problem) etc etc etc...i am so tired of whining i know everyone around me is......i get my protein in between my morning protein shake and then a bar and or food throughout the day...i eat too much on occasion and have been grabbing for a sweet here and there and never even was a sweet person...my biggest problem is the no excersize and the stopping before i am full ....i am in a size 16 and so glad for that..i really think i just need to talk things out i know where i am going wrong and what i need to do..i guess i am realizing that a hundred pounds gone does not make life perfect...i don't think i thought it would but i am not sure what i expected...we can do this we just need to talk to each other and work on it...our minds haven't changed and i sometimes forget that....

Jeez, I really love you all. I've been MIA on the board too because I've been such a bad bad bad example ...... I started regaining weight right after I hit my 100-lb mark -- like 2-4 lb a month! Partly eating too much fruit, partly depression, partly eating too many protein bars, partly total lack of exercise ... blah blah blah and now I'm up 15lb! Actually, September was the first month I managed to hold steady at 172, and I'm fighting hard to not go higher than that in October -- but there have been days when the scale said 175. This after having gotten down to 156-158 in April. Yesterday I pulled on a pair of pants I wore last winter and THEY WERE TOO SMALL!!!!!!!! This is the wrong direction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've sworn to join the health club that's right across the street from where I work (but I haven't done it yet). I've sworn to stop eating between meals (but haven't done that yet either). Thank god for all of you, helping me face facts and come out of the closet with this issue. You can do it, I can do it, and gosh darn it let's DO IT. Donna

WOW!!!! I am soo in this boat and I feel very bad about it...I am also a sugar addict here is my morning so far 1% milk with carnation bfst. drink 1cup 1 granola bar with choc. chips (not the healthy kind) 3 mini kit kat bars 2 string cheese 1 smaller size granola bar with choc. chips 1 cheese and turkey sand. on this great flax seed bread (ate the whole thing including the 2 slices of bread, some days I can do that some I can only eat half....need to slow down I think) about 6 0z of water... by the way it is now 12:30... I will try to check this board more because I also have been wondering what is wrong with me and feeling tired and depressed at times and great at other times...but for me I am realizing that for almost 10 years I did not have a period due to my weight and my poly cycstic ovaries, now since surgery period every month and all the fun hormones that go with it...I am wondering if it is just my normal cycle and I have just not recognized it for what it is until now when I start to think I am manic depressive or something!!!! We do need to keep posting I also lurk alot but you all help me sooo much....I am also determined to get some photos out there now too! Love to you all! Lisa

Julie, It was so good to see your post. I too have been MIA. Gosh time fly's by so fast. Well, like most of us, I am NOT a good example of post WLS eating! Here is what I had today. Lunch...a tv dinner snack..baby ruth candy bar. Coke snack..piece of pepper cheese coke snack..nother piece of cheese snack..nother piece of cheese Dinner..piece of swiss cheese, and a couple pieces of roast beef. snack..a bite of cherry pie, which I am sure I will finish before bed, with another piece of cheese I do get ALOT of protien in, only becasue I am addicted to cheese. I am more than willing to do the food diary again. Take care Brenda