1 Year Ago Today !!!

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on 5/26/05 4:55 pm - I Do Believe .. I Do I Do .., VA

Today marks one year since my surgery. Everyday I have to look into the mirror to make sure it is me who I see . Is it me.. of course it is.. the lady now looking back at you Pixie is who you always wanted to be .. healthy.. happy and full of life . All of the things I said I wanted to do... I can now do... Wanting to feel like a part of society .. wanting to be able not to hurt any more.. to feel crappy all the time .. it is all gone . It has been a year of ups and downs... the all night tummy rumblings , the puking .. the leaky greasies .. label reading .. sugar counting .. walking my ass off -- literally .. having to buy new clothes every other 2 weeks.. watching my beautiful hair fall out ..my boobs deplouding.. seeing my daughter cry because her mother is tiny .. having my son pick me up over his shoulders with pride .. hearing people say .. are you on a diet ? Having my husband ask me .. are ya dumping ? Exersising like there is no tommorow .. the doctor visits.. the emergency room visits.. the passing out .. the new hanging skin .. the new short haircut ..counting every bite of food I put into my body .. vitamins , iron , water.. PROTEIN .. OMG I can not forget counting my protein .. the list goes on but for the most part it has been a year of reconing .. a year that I found myself .. who I am ... who I was meant to be .. I now go forward in my new life to help others... to be there when no one else can ..to give all of this back .. if just one person could feel as happy and full of life as I do .. I want to personally thank everyone here at OH that has been my friends and my support ... From Kat Ring who met me in the docs office and had remained my friend ever since.. Lei .. my beautiful inspiration to even have this surgery ..Sherrita .. where ever you are .. for letting me be there for you and giving me hope that I can help others .. to my husband as crazy as our life is right now for always ..always being there for me when I was sick .. for my children who always have been there to hug me when no one else would .. Thank you all.. I am going to be gone for a couple days.. I am on my way in a couple hours to GA to be with my best friend to celebrate my NEW LIFE ANNIVERSARY.. This is all very emotional for me today .. and I just want you to know that I would do this a million times over .. this surgery saved my life .. Have a great weekend.. and remember... smile .. they never know what you are thinking .. Always, Pixie