FAILURE

Susan ... I miss you ! First off .. Let me say .. none of us are failures .. do we have set backs .. yes . Here is what I have trained myself to do . When I get the urge to eat something like chips or sweets.. I remind my self that they will kill me .. I know this sounds drastic .. but it works for me .. so far I have done ok .. right now I am struggling with wanting a diet coke.. Minus the fizz .. and I just can not do it .. It is good that you have been able to confront these demons ... just keep confessing and going back over the basics ... You will be fine . Natalie

Natalie- You are so right to think of it as deadly. It IS. These foods are POISON to me, and really aren't necessary for any of my family members, so they need to GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!! I am doing so much better today. I had a good food day yesterday and it brought back a bit of my confidence. I have planned out the week's meals and written out my goals and I at least now have an organized plan on how I'm going to get a grip. I hear you on the Diet Coke. I was a huge addict for years and I'm finally clean of caffeine and I keep trying to remind myself that I'm so much better off that way. I had a cup of caffeinated tea a month ago, but other than that I've been clean since surgery. Thanks for the support-you are doing so very well! Hugs, Susan

Susan- Glad to hear from you again. Missed you! I think that we are all at a stage where we started feeling good about our success and we went back to our old best friend to celebrate. For some our friend missed us so much that it calls us back, tempting us to stuff our feelings and emotions with food again. I remember eating when I was happy, sad, mad, board, frustrated, anxious, etc. I find that I have found some foods that I liked before the WLS that I can still tolerate but I do realize that I eat much less than I used to (call it justification if we must). I think that the thing that I try hard to remember is that this is a training process, and that my body will only hold a small amount and that I will get sick if I overeat or choose to eat the wrong things for too long (physically). Normal people do not deny themselves everything that is not good for them but they eatt hem rarely and in very small amounts. I too am going to be normal. So that is my 2 cents on the issue. Hang in there and failure is only a choice if you allow it to be. Hang in there and keep us update on what is happening. Also how your appointment goes with the counselor. -Gerriann Lap RNY 5/14/04 125+ pounds gone forever!

susan, you have done so well!! i am down 54 pounds and start each day praying that i don't run into some baked goods or a box of chocolates at work; 'tis the season, you know..................... i, too, feel great, look better than i have in years and have the old demons of salt/sugar/fat plagueing me at every turn. i know what i should be eating but, then again, didn't i always??? one day at a time and we'll all see positive results. my sister is having WLS in a month or two and i''m determined to set a good example. good luck, gail 251/197/140(?)