Feeling like a lunatic: Update

I have my up days and I have my down days. I am a scale slave, and that's part of it. It went UP, believe it or not, and AF isn't coming for a visit or anything. It's only by about a pound, but it was hovering at 200.4 and I was so excited to maybe break that barrier-now it's up to 201.4. How silly of me to fret over something so trivial. I took my daughter to the pediatrician two days ago-she weighs 52 lbs. I can barely lift her. I have lost almost ten pounds more than she weighs. I can't believe I was getting out of bed with that extra weight and toting it around all day. No WONDER I had no energy. I DO feel so much better these days. And like I am always telling other ppl, I can measure my success in non-scale ways. I managed 25 minutes on the elliptical trainer two days in a row! I'm going to try for 30 next time. No WAY I could have done that with my daughter on my back (and thighs, and stomach, and arms, and and and). My clothes all fit (most are hilariously baggy), and I like the way my face looks these days. Even when I was at my highest, I thought I still had a pretty face, but when I look at the before pictures, I realize that I really didn't. I had a job interview yesterday. I filled out an online application for a Needs Assessment Counselor at a local psych hospital on FRIDAY and they called me Monday morning. I was expecting to have a few weeks to get myself ready. It went pretty well, and I'm hoping. Here's a link to my yahoo photos-I arranged them as well as I could to show the melting effect, but my photographer is art-impaired. Whatchagonnado. Let me know if I actually managed the feat of getting the link to work. Hugs, Susan http://photos.yahoo.com/susancagle

Hey Susan, sometimes I am a scale slave too but look at all the weight that you lost so far. 1 pound is nothing compared to that. You are doing great!!!! and you are looking great also. Keep up the good work!!! Christine -52

Thanks for the added perspective on the one pound. You are too right about that. I saw that your oldest started K. Mine starts on Sept 7, but get this: it's only "half-day Kindergarten", which for here means 8:25am-10:55am. Does that make you wanna laugh or what? She'll be in a Spanish Immersion program, so I'm betting that two and a half hours is a nice limit. Still, I was kinda looking forward to going back to work without having to pay huge childcare expenses. How is Francesca liking it? Hugs, Susan

Hiya Susan. Your link works fine. I wanted to tell you, you're not the only scale slave around here. But it will make you crazy. Trust me on that one. I was stuck for 5 weeks at 208. Almost two weeks ago, I got on the scale and when I saw it hadnt moved I jumped up and down on the thing, screamed and cussed at it, cried a bit, and then threw the thing into the top of dh's closet. Its still up there. I found my sanity again and feel sooooooo much better. I was completely obsessed with the scale. And I mean more than once per day. It will drive you nuts if you let it. Put your scale away for a while. You'll feel so much better. You're in my prayers! You look terrific. God bless you! Melanie

You are 100% right about the scale. I know you are. I just can't seem to bring myself to let it go. I told dh when I got it that I might make him confiscate it and only let me weigh once a week. I'm giving it until Saturday and then it's getting the "Melanie Treatment". You shoulda seen me when I was trying to conceive. I couldn't wait to see if I was going to miss my period so I would use a pregnancy test the first POSSIBLE day, only to be disappointed. I should have bought stock in them. In fact, the day I finally got a positive result was only 24 days from the first day of my last period. By the time I got to the doctor's office later that day, it was not "first morning urine" and I tested negative at the doctor's office. It took a total of FOUR tests to confirm that I was pregnant with my doctor. Ya think maybe I'm a bit obsessive? Impatient? Loony? Thanks for the prayers and the nice words on my appearance. Hugs, Susan

Susan, You are gorgeous no matter what weight you are at! You did have a pretty face and now you are even prettier. Good luck with going cold turkey from the scale. I'm not ready to let go of mine yet. Some days I gain a pound or 2, but then it magically goes away with a few more to boot! I don't worry about a little fluctuation. Good luck with the job. If you are a lunatic, you're in very good company. I lost my marbles years ago! Cheryl

If you sprinkle some of that scale magic my way, I'll start a search for your lost marbles... Hugs, Susan

You are SO doing the right thing by getting that scale monkey off your back. Just for fun I decided to weight myself at work for 18 times during the day yesterday. I was shocked! I fluctuated a total of 4.3 pounds between 0730 - 1630. From a low of 349.2 to a high of 353.5.! Now granted I am bigger than a lot of people, but that seems like a big swing in just 9 hours. Now I can see why scale watching can drive you nutty in a hurry. Put those scales away and follow your doctors plan! PS - Your photos are great!

I'm a water-chugger. No way I could weigh any other time of the day but first thing in the AM, buck nekkid, after using the w.c. I'm too scared to think how much MORE I could weigh after an afternoon of water and then dinner. EEEK. My doctor's plan. Hmmm. Seems I had that around here somewhere. Now where did I put that thing??? Hugs, Susan