Having a very hard time.....

I am having such a hard time with all of this.I'm 15 days out,and I can't deal anymore.I have such horrible depression.And I'm so hungry.I can't deal with the protein shakes anymore.I take a sip and swallow,then I gag.I can't stand the taste anymore.Looked for other stuff,but the sugar content is so high.And I can't afford to go out and buy other stuff.I only have a few days left on full liquids.Monday(of all days) I can start pureed.I'm not looking foward to that either.I am so tired of drinking my meals.I'm at the point where I feel that if I wanted to starve for 6 weeks,I never would have had the surgery.We haven't had a family dinner since I came home.It's bad enough I have to cook the food,I am NOT going to sit and watch them eat.Kids get upset when I leave the room.We haven't had a family breakfast either.That upsets my kids too.****** me off to no end.I am so angry,depressed,hungry....I don't normally cry.I spent most of 3 days crying because I can't eat.It subsided,now it's starting again.I've had a migraine(a real bad one) for a week now.I can't take Excedrine anymore.Of course,it's the only thing that ever helped me.That's due to not having any food(that's always happened).It's one way I knew to eat.Plus the stress isn't helping.Going to my 2 week check-up on Thursday...going to have a nice talk with my doctor and nutritionist.

Hi, Im sorry your having such a hard time. I haven't been through this yet but can only imagine how hard it must be. I guess you can count on the reward of getting on the scales at your appointment. I hope you show mega amounts of loss how great that will be. once you get through this first part it will be be better. I wish I was there it sounds like you need a friend and a hug......guess you'll have to settle for a friend and a prayer. take care and don't let it get to you, your on your way girl, good luck. God bless Doris.

I hear Ya....I had mine on May 12th..and it is so hard..I am cooking for the family and it makes it almost impossible..shakes weren't so bad in the beginning but like you now I almost gag to get one in....I am sorry it is so rough but I hear it will all be worth it....Then on my one week I was only down 8lbs..and I felt like it should have been so much more..hang in there and email me if you need anything...stay strong... allison

Meredith, Can you call your doctors office and let them know you are struggling? I am on a full liquid diet and the worst part I am finding is that I get so thirsty. So sugar-free popcicles are great and sugar-free pudding. Call and ask if there is anything else you can have but the protien shakes. Hang in there! -Gerriann post-op 11+ days and 27 pounds gone forever!

Oh ((((hugs))) to you! Just hang in with the full liquids until you are done. The pureed foods are way better. Once you can get enough calories in and protein, your mood will improve. Actually, I don't like the protein drinks either. The only one I can get down easily is the Carnation No sugar added. I've been adding peanut butter and a banana to boost the protein up. I don't blame you for not wanting to watch people eat. Makes me kinda quesy actually. Cry, Cry, Cry....feels crummy, but is ohhhhh so good for you. I'm sorry it's rocky right now. JC Lap rny w. choly May 14 2004

Hi Meredith, I had my surgery 9 days ago, so I know how you feel. I too have to cook for my son and fiancee, and it is HARD, and sometimes horrible. I have cried as well. I feel so up and down most of the time, but I just keep telling myself ONE DAY AT A TIME! It is easier that way, I know I can't have food now, but I will be able to one day...One day when I'm not miserably obese, one day when I'm not too embaressed to be seen in someting other than stretch pants and over sized shirts. I went out and bought scales to help remind me of why I am suffering through this. It helped. I found I lost 20 pounds already!!! And then I asked myself why in God's name do I want so much all the food that made me the way I am now...The answer is I DON'T! It is just what I was used to. I only think I want it cause what else is there? I filled every need I had with food, now it's time for me to look for something different, better for me. I will start today with some "scrap booking"...it doesn't sound real interesting to me, but what do I know, (other than food) I haven't even tried it yet. If that doesn't wotk for me than I will try something else. As far as the shakes they are not good, but I have had worse, plus I know my body needs the protein...I do not want to lose my hair! Have you tried the Atkins shakes they are not too awful. The crying is good, a wonderful pastor once told me, crying cleanses the soul. Mine needs cleansing, besides we are going through a sort of mourning time, we have a loss, the loss of our once best friend, turned enemy...FOOD. So let it out, feel the loss and look for a new friend. I hope this helps some... Keep in touch, Denise

Ugh, I hated the Atkins shakes...but you NEED to get some protein in! Try adding a tablespoon of unsweetened cocoa, and Splenda to taste, to your shakes. It adds three carbs but it's better than letting your body feast on it's muscles. Also, I couldn't stomach the shakes mixed with water, so my hubby brough Carb Countdown for me, which can be bought at any grocery store, I think. Designer Whey is about $8 a jar, available at Trader Joe's and probably other places, and it's very good. Cheers, Celia -20 lbs in 21 days.